i keep an eye on everything, myself included. being self-conscious is a good thing. it keeps me on the ground and allows me to be aware of my mistakes. but sometimes it becomes a problem when i judge myself too hard in very unnecessary ways. no one really cares about you all that much in social gatherings. not to the point where they're aware of your every action. even as a very observant person, i don't even do that. but somehow i just can't convince myself to relax in social situations. photography events and other professional occasions are fine now, i've introduced myself enough and established my personality long before we've met irl. at professional events, i come prepared to meet new people and let other people meet me. yet, being physically alone and lost in a crowd of acquaintances is the worst for me. i'm never scared to be the center of the attention, but in any situation similar to the wedding i was at yesterday, i constantly feel like i'm being judged for looking like a lonely loser. in reality everyone is having fun and giving no shit about me. in addition, because of how aware i am of my state of loneliness, and how i'm not doing anything and not being myself, i get even more awkward and anxious at big social events. i'm really glad to be an observant and self-conscious person, but sometimes i should let myself go easy a bit. being alone at home by myself and being alone out in public really is not that different, people's judgements shouldn't matter that much.
Recently got home from an exhausting 12 hours in the car back to pittsburgh from Montpelier, Vermont. Im going to miss being on the road and seeing beautiful places everyday. Like this campsite on the first night away from home in Sugar Hill State Forest, NY.
🎓 | Nesse final de semana também tivemos o prazer de registrar a recepção de formatura da @brunabudny e da @thalikestering! Muito obrigado pela escolha e confiança em nosso trabalho, desejamos sucesso a vocês nessa nova etapa!! 🙂
Hoje tivemos o prazer de registrar os 90 anos do seu Elias Daros!! É pra poucos chegar nessa idade e ainda mais com toda a saúde e disposição que ele tem, que venham muitos anos pela frente!! Ao seu Elias e toda a família, agradecemos pela confiança em nosso trabalho de registrar esse grande momento!! 🙂
I like that feeling you get when a shoot feels like one of your bests but then again you know it won't be the best you took. I don't want that feeling to fade yet I'm longing for it to come back next time I edit a photo set.
Get ready for lots of pics from this one cause I'm fucking proud of it.
edit: Also I just found out its #worldphotographyday so, have a nice day photographers from everywhere!