I was going to set my alarm last night, so I could be productive today and not waste time in bed and be "lazy" and all that, but then I stopped myself and thought for a second. It's Saturday. Logically there's no reason to set my alarm. I have plenty of time to rest AND finish my work, which means that my mind wanted me to get up early for NO REASON WHATSOEVER, OTHER than the supposed idea that I'd somehow be "lazy" if I didn't. Well SUCK IT anxiety I've been working my butt off all week and now it's time for me to shove it up yours 👊👊👊
Guess who didn't set their alarm and ended up rolling out of bed after 1:00 pm? ME AHAHHA 😉💥 But I woke up refreshed and ready to SLAY today because I chose to take care of myself instead of giving into the feeling that I can't. Besides, you can't expect to get anything done if you're too tired to keep your eyes open! 😴 Rest is essential, no exceptions 🌛💙💚
And I did say I was ready to SLAY so I did just that with a yummy bowl of cereal WAHAY 🙆🌟 This is the @kashi cocoa spice cereal and it's sooooo good 😍 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I hope you all have a beautiful day and remember to take care of yourselves, you need and deserve it ❤❤ Let's start this weekend right ✨
#nightsnack is museli, greek yogurt 🍦 and honey 🍯 // feeling like shit tonight as they had to force the medication down me and i couldn’t complete some of my meals today. 😔 i feel like im going backwards. was allowed to play snooker 🎱 (escorted pass now😓) and go in the garden though😃💕
❤️VERY IMPORTANT POST❤️ I know some people think writing your opinions on Instagram is to "complain". And yes, I am complaining because how will I otherwise change the world? This time it's about bodies. There ARE people here that are so thin that it's an illness. And I have NO RESPECT for those who say "it's the vegan food" or "I was born this way" or "it's healthy eating and exercise". And they complain about getting comments from their followers being worried about their food intake, and accuse their followers of "body shaming" them for being too thin. Wait, what? If ALL of your instagram photos is about not your body, but your ribs, your hip bones, your fucking LIGAMENTS in your hips, and you have HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF FOLLOWERS, people WILL worry. Not necessarily for your sake, but for the sake of other followers. How many of these HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF FOLLOWERS look at the photos, read "it's only healthy eating and exercise" and shame themselves for not "being healthy and exercising enough?" Their worry is not body shaming; it's a call of despair to be ensured that it's NOT HEALTHY to look that way. I KNOW some people are born thin. I KNOW some people stay thin due to healthy eating and exercise. ❤️But my intelligence proceeds that of which I'm stupid enough to believe your natural weight allows your inguinal ligament to protrude❤️ And if you're an influencer, you DO HAVE A RESPONSIBILITY TOWARDS YOUR FOLLOWERS in the same way I have a responsibility towards my patients when I become a doctor. So don't give me the "it's healthy eating and exercise" bullcrap, say "it's starvation and degrading my muscles with cardio". You may look/do/eat WHATEVER the hell you want but PROTECT YOUR FOLLOWERS FROM "it's only me being healthy" because that's a LIE. I'm SO disappointed that not one of these people, NOT ONE, have been able to say "no I don't starve myself". It's always only excuses. Now fuck off to hell.
We all have them in life. One of my challenges is to eat. And today I won a bit of this challenge, I’ve eaten sushi without the voice in my head who was screaming to stop. Okay, after that, the voice came back but i’ve ignored her till now. And that’s a bit of a challenge.
But we have to fight to our challenges to live a happy life and to come further in life. So today I am one little step further!#anorexiarecovery#dutchrecovery#dutchierecovering#happylife#challengeyourself#challenges#love4sushi
Filled with joy that EDNOS (eating disorders not otherwise specified) and atypical anorexia (alarming rates of weight loss similar to that lost in ‘typical’ patients but still weighing in with a ‘normal’ BMI) are finally being recognised. Recently a leading dietitian in ED research came into my work and gave a talk about how these conditions are now being recognised by health professionals and that they are realising not everyone ‘looks’ like they have an eating disorder ‼️‼️ She explained that those with EDNOS/atypical can present with the same physiological and psychological health issues as those with typical (BMI < a certain #) anorexia and eating disorders. Can only hope this recognition and growth continues ✨💫
Нахуя я вообще рассказывала кому-то о булимии?
Сейчас короче сильно отдалилась от тех, кто знает, кроме нескольких людей.
Отдалилась потому, что с ними рядом находясь я чувствую себя неполноценной. Це пиздец
Съебываю на переменах в студсовет (отдельный кабинетик для элиты) и кайфую. Стала прогуливать некоторые пары,ибо нахуй там сидеть, если ничему не научусь?
Хочу короче 53
И ляхи меньше)))))))
Хотя начала себе нравиться, ы
Что посоветуете, солнышки? Как с людьми этими контачить? Стоит ли?
On Thursday for #breakfast I had French toast sticks with maple syrup, tater tots, a fruit cup and some hot chocolate ☕️
#lunch was pepperoni pizza 🍕 (#fearfood 😱) , diced peaches 🍑, orange juice 🍑 and a graham cracker.
#eveningsnack was pretzels but didn't use the peanut butter 🥜
#dinner was spaghetti with marinara sauce 🍝, garlic bread 🍞, celery sticks and ranch. This was a bigger challenge because there was a lot of carbs like the noodles and bread but I did it 👍🏼
#nightsnack was a banana 🍌
Just a quick reminder:
Never ever give up!💪
Merkt euch das!
Es werden immer schlechte Zeiten kommen, immer Zeiten, in denen es schwer sein wird, seinen inneren Schweinehund zu besiegen! Und wisst ihr was? Das ist okay! Es ist okay, dass nicht alles okay ist!
Man darf hinfallen, man darf sehr sehr oft hinfallen, aber man muss immer wieder aufstehen! Und das einmal mehr als man fällt! Wie sagt man so schön? Hinfallen-aufstehen-Krone richten-weitergehen👑
Und das ist so wahr!
Ich bin gefallen, aber ich weiß, dass ich wieder aufstehen werde! Und ich werde niemals aufgeben, selbst wenn es noch so schwer sein wird!
Und ihr dürft das auch nicht, okay?
Wir schaffen das! Glaubt an euch selbst, denn wo ein Wille ist, ist auch ein Weg!❤ So, meine Worte zum Samstagabend! Gute Nacht ihr Lieben❤
I could #eat pasta everyday and probably not even get tired of it. 🍝
There’s so many different ways to eat it! #foodislife
Normally #pasta is associated with being a savory #dish , but let me get into #chefmode 👩🏼🍳Combining #cooking and #baking 🤤
... for #dinner I had pasta au gratin or gratinated pasta or OVEN BAKED pasta 🍴 #foodie
Here’s the twist: it’s sweet and more like #dessert 🙄 I used cottage cheese (!!) and vanilla sugar which is such a good combo, paired with a few other ingredients 💭 Simple, but filling and comforting 🧡
Life is treating me poorly lately. Not trying to be negative, but.. nothing food related this time [actually I’m doing so far the best I’ve been 🤗], but family wise. Ughh I’m so worried and afraid what might happen. Can I skip a few days.. or years? Can’t deal with the pain, and I had a panic attack after not having any for a good few months 😔 I refuse to let my world crash and there’s no way #anorexia will get to take advantage of my vulnerability. My goal is to #recover ! 🤛🏼 Mom told me to do this for myself, never to rely on anyone else. She told me that she’s very proud of me for choosing #recovery after struggling for so long. She’s way too precious for everything and I love her a lot.
May everything be okay. PLEASE.
Anyhow, good night sweets! 💤💙
Hey, it’s been a minute. 🌪 Over the past few weeks I debated whether or not I needed to keep posting on this account but then I saw how much inspiration people got from other recovery accounts and I thought “why not?” 🌾 So hello, hello. What have you been up to? I saw Lady Gaga
Salted caramel (think it’s now my fave flavour!) müller rice with a hot chocolate 🍫 an apple 🍎 and a hero after a nice night with Gabbie- we watched how to be single which was pretty good 😂👍🏻 and I have no work in the morning so LIE IN 😊😊😊😊 sleep tight my lovelies 🧡
I've come home for the weekend and made m and m cakes with mum. And after a few hour managed to try one and then had another later! I find eating at home easier, because I'm more relaxed. Plus mum also makes me and I feel like she takes a bit of control away which sort of makes it easier I don't fully understand it. But hey ho one day of good eating probably isn't going to be enough to save the week before weigh in. We also had pie and veg for dinner! My tummy feels so full and my head to guilty. #edfam#ana#anorexia#anorexiarecovery#edrecovery#mentalhealth
I made an account before but it logged me out and was being weird so I just made a new one
So first I'm madison and I'm currently inpatient at the hospital. My doctor sent me to a eating disorder treatment center, so my parents took me on Tuesday and they said I needed to be treated at the hospital because of severely low heart, how underweight I was and for my anorexia. This part of the hospital I'm in specializes in eating disorders and I'm under strict rules. I'm also hooked up to a heart monitor and am monitored 24/7. Some rules are that I have to eat in the hallway while supervised, I have 30 minutes to finish my meals(which I've struggled with every meal, most have taken me an hour😣), my bathroom is locked, the sink is covered, I have no trash cans, etc.. Im given breakfast, lunch and dinner then 3 snacks, which I haven't been hungry at all for any of them, I feel extremely sick from everything because I've been severely restricting for a year. But I'm going to post all my meals from Wednesday till yesterday as FDOE posts then I'll post my separate meals starting with the meals I've eaten today and will it. So on Tuesday I only had breakfast,lunch and dinner because they're increasing my calories slowly to avoid re feeding syndrome. So breakfast was apple and cinnamon oatmeal 🍎(my favorite!), grapes 🍇(also my fav) and orange juice 🍊(calories in drinks is a huge #fearfood , I haven't had a drink other than water in a year so this was hard). But it's weird because the last month all I've eaten was some grapes and oatmeal for dinner and that's my first breakfast here. Lunch was chicken, green beans, an orange 🍊 and rice which I couldn't manage to eat so they made me have Ensure. Also hot chocolate☕️🍫Dinner was half a grilled cheese 🧀 , corn 🌽,diced peaches and chocolate milk. I'm going to post the meals I had the other 2 days I was here as a FDOE post then I'll separately post today's meals!
Glad to be back on here:) keep fighting everyone 👊🏼💪🏼
A day of Christmas markets and shopping with my mum and boyfriend and some delish food at Jamie's Italian this evening 😍 I've got such a sweet tooth and this chocolate brownie really hit the spot. Anyone else a sweet tooth gal like me??
afternoon snack: pomegranate seeds, snap peas, and a granola bar. about to go shopping and kind of nervous because my body image is really bad today but i am pushing through 💪 also does anyone have any tips for dealing with the bloating that comes with increasing? i would really appreciate it 💕
I JUST ATE ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEAR FOODS EVER!!!!!!! I have an intense fear of picnic foods such as pasta salad, potato salad, Cole slaw etc. well, I'm at my grandmas and I just ate potato salad for the first time in YEARS. It was pretty hard, I didn't get any at first, then later I went into the kitchen and almost changed my mind, and then put it on my plate but almost couldn't get myself to take a bite, thinking about the fears I have and the fear of the mayonnaise inside of it, but I DID IT. Fuck you Ed!!!! #recoverywin#nourishtoflourish#intuitiveeating#fearfood#edrecovery#anorexia#anorexianervosa#anorexiarecovery
Treating myself to lunch (omg!)🤤💗
Cheese grits. My fav.
⛅️Today so far I had my usual brekkie of toast, avocado, egg, spinach, vegan cheese🥑.
Snack was the usual icecream w/ hot fudge🍦.
Now lunch- cheese grits🧀!
🌧It’s a beautiful rainy day and I set my intentions high last night with the new moon, so I’m focusing on my needs a lot today.
I have a goofy side. I love to laugh and smile and jump around. I dance and sing in the car while serenading passing cars. I get excited over horses (my passion), new thriller books, and Once Upon a Time. I love to jump out of bed in the morning after a good stretch and shrill shriek. Bear hugs are my forte. These are only some things about me...things that my eating disorder steals. Anorexia has done nothing but make me miserable, angry, depressed, anxious, and horrible to be around. It breaks me down, convincing me that I am not worth living life; I’m not worth being a part of this world. But...in recovery I’m learning that my eating disorder is wrong. I’m tired of it stealing my life away—a life I am perfectly entitled to. We all are. I’m not perfect, but every day I am trying to beat this. Sometimes I’m tired, but I will always fight. I hope you keep fighting your demons, too. ❤️ I wanted to tag some people on here who keep me going, whose accounts inspire me every day. Thank you for being you!
Allora a pomeriggio ho fatto j compiti 📚e dopo ho fatto una bella doccia🚿...
Stasera cena con:
•Tagliata di petto di pollo🐔
•Patate al forno
Ora guardo Tu si que vales in tv📺, night snack e poi vado a dormire...credo che appena poggeró la testa sul cuscino mi addormenteró subito...
La discussione avuta ieri sera mi fa riflettere tutt'ora sulla mia reazione e i pensieri che mi venivano in mente e mi sono resa conto di quanto la malattia influisca ancora e della mia fragilitá...mi sentivo un errore, uno sbaglio, ho subito pensato di ricominciare a non mangiare, di abbandonare tutto e tutti fino a distruggermi definitivamente...
Ci stavo pensando in tutti modi...forse era un momento di incoscienza, di rabbia...non ne ho idea...non avevo ragioni per vivere, per affrontare quella discussione e combattere contro questa malattia...
stasera non voglio pensarci e preferisco stare tranquilla...
Avrei voluto raccontarvi queste cose ieri ma non ne avevo le forze...ora sto molto meglio perchè ieri abbiamo risolto tutto e oggi non ho avuto molto tempo per pensarci...
Voi cosa state guardando in tv?La vostra cenetta?
Buonanotte e sogni d'oro!😘😘❤
Suhhhh gooood! 👆
And I even got it on clearance for less than $2 at a local health food store. Score!
What's the weather like by you? It's been raining all day and has gotten suuuper windy here in northern Indiana..