Binge eating is like being a mechanical robot; you are possessed by the movements without getting to control them yourself.
Food addiction is like needing food like you need water; while experiencing the pleasure of eating, nothing else matters but that high.
Emotional eating is like painting a black wall bright colors; it numbs you for a bit and makes all the sadness go away.
All 3 of these things I struggle with. I’ve been like this since I was a little girl, turning to food because I was lonely, depressed, scared, angry.
Food was my best friend.
Food was there for me.
Food was medicine.
Though food made me 497 pounds.
Though food made me ugly, sluggish, unhealthy, and unconfident.
I’ve done this before- going on diets that only fail but something I’ve never truly done was completely change my lifestyle but here I am, after losing 20 pounds that took all my strength, I can say that this lifestyle change was the best thing I’ve ever done for myself.
I’m only 20 pounds down but that 20 pounds down shows how many times I was able to win the battle of Binge Eating, Food Addiction, and Emotional Eating.
I’ll continue to win.
#TBT to 2014 - That time I had a beautiful wedding dress all picked out and deposit paid, before announcing to everyone that we were pregnant with baby #3 , our sweet Paisley June.. this was also before tragedy struck and we lost her that same year 8.5 months into my pregnancy. 💔 Life works out in ways you would never expect sometimes, and you learn that although the “after” period of your life losing your child is harder than anything you will ever go through - eventually you will learn to be happy even though a piece of your heart is missing. And although we cancelled our original wedding plans and re-evaluated our plans for our family and future, and our plans are now drastically different than what they were before, it doesn’t mean they won’t still be amazing. We now have our complete beautiful little family and they will ALL be joining us for our destination wedding as we enjoy getting married/honey mooning/ family vacationing all at once!. I am so so excited to finally marry this amazing man on a beautiful beach, 9 years to the day from when we decided to make it “official” #TBT#BeforeAndAfter#AngelMommy#Stillbirth#LifePlans#WisconsinMom#Family#BrideToBe#Wedding#WeddingDress#2014#7MonthsTilWeSayIDo#Finally @theronneisius_mma
Forehead wrinkles, contoured cheek and plumped lips are all the rage right now. But don't let these hot procedures distract you from what's under your nose - your chin! Your chin crease to be exact. The labiomental crease to be even more exact. This crease can get deeper as we age (and will put a couple years on your face). This can easily be prevented with botox or can be raised up with fillers. Look how youthful she looks!! Editor: Naima Image from: www.jhadore.com
This year I’m taking part in the @bodybuildingcom transformation challenge and some of you may be wondering “why?” I know that I’m still “fit” but here’s my reason why!
Back in 2009 I started my fitness journey and learned about nutrition, macro counting, and training with the help of the resources at @bodybuildingcom. I completely changed my life and my body! I even WON female transformation of the year for 2013! Then, competing entered my life. I thought this goal would lead me to an even healthier point. After all, everyone is so shredded, right?!?! WRONG!!! .
Over the years I stopped being active in my nutrition, turning it over to coaches, blindly following set plans. It always got me shredded but after the competition I felt lost unless I was still following a plan. I didn’t know how to feel fit unless I was restricting everything! I got so used to that crutch of someone telling me what to do and how much to eat. Every time I gain the weight back because I’m not used to being the one in charge. .
I finally decided after my last competition, (realizing after that I was only consuming 900 calories a day and performing 2.5 hrs of cardio/training) that enough was enough! I need and want more balance in my life. I need to get back to the basics, taking responsibility for my intake and food choices. To have the skills back that I once had. .
I’m not as overweight as I used to be but I am definitely heavier than several months ago 🤦🏻♀️. When the challenge came around again I knew that this was the thing that would get me started on the right path again. So, along with a new coach who puts the control in my hands (IIFYM) 💪and the basics I’m relearning from @bodybuildingcom, I’m ready to start over and to transform my lifestyle once again. .
There’s no greater feeling than knowing that you have the skills necessary to maintain a healthy lifestyle and it’s just like riding a bike...I’ll get back there again...and have 12 weeks to prove it!
So this not a cosplay post but a personal one that I wanted to share. Today is my 1 year anniversary since I had LASIK eye surgery. 😁 👀 This surgery was a big turning point for me. .
I’ve had glasses since 1st grade. Wearing contacts wasn’t really an option since my vision was so bad that everything was still fuzzy. It took a few years, but I finally decided to do the surgery last year and I don’t regret it at all! ❤️ Don’t get me wrong, I LOVED my glasses as an accessory. But I felt there was a need for a change. .
The left is a picture of me that was taken a week before my surgery (Who is she?? 😂) and the right was taken in November of the same year. I feel like these pictures show how I’ve grown and become more confident in myself in the past year. 😊
If you have any questions on my experience with LASIK (everyone has different experiences). I’ll be more than happy to answer! Thank you again for reading another long post of mine. 😅 Have a wonderful day! ❤️
Last couple days it’s been cold. I’ve could have taken it easy an stayed at home. But having two projects going I couldn’t rest. Finished the subway tile back splash today. Grout this weekend. This project is almost complete. It will be for sale soon. It’s a small cottage, but it has a lot of character. More pics to come. #cottage#beforeandafter#instakitchen
#tbt to my lowest weight... I was just glowing then. I do not regret weight loss surgery. I regret that I didn’t get the proper education and that I allowed myself to get a little too comfortable. I have no one to blame but, myself. But, this photo really makes me want to get back to that ideal time in my life. So thankful for the man who loved me through weight loss. weight gain. jobs. school. Wedding planning. Wedding. Everything. & I’m happy to be sharing my journey with a great community. Happy Thursday friends 💕❤️🤟