I am the queen of weird concoctions. Breakfast at this time was granola with banana and custard yogurt and biscoff😍going to a family meal kinda thing later which is different to my normal Sunday routine but looking forward to it! Until then I'm just going to lounge around and eat😂hope you all have a nice day!😘❤️ Btw my internets down so I wont be active much until it's back up!🙄
#tb to yesterday's delicious snack : a bowl with curd and berries 🍓, besides I had a protein bar which tasted not as good as I thought 😕 the one with white chocolate and crisps is definitely waaay better 🙈
Today I had to work and afterwards I cooked, cleaned up the kitchen and went foodhopping with my sister. Now I am lying in my comfortable bed and I will read a little bit 📖 So wish you a cozy night and hope that you aren't annoyed by my 'boring' posts buut I really can't write a motivational text if I am not in the mood to do so. Please excuse me 😇
12th November 2014. -
(Second to the left is me)
If I could go back in time and say something to my former self, I would go back to this day and say "don't throw that hummus in the bin, get that waffle at break time from the canteen, dont save your dinner money up to buy snacks to binge on. You are beautiful" How could I not see how I was beautiful the way I was, that I didn't need to do what I was doing? Id just started a new school and met friends quite quickly, the future was looking up after a bad start to my high school life. But the pressure of being the "new girl" and fitting everyones standards to not get the hate I received in my previous school was making me do dangerous things. It wasnt long before my behaviours led me to be hospitalised, having to leave my new school 3 years early. Things could of been different. But let's not think about what could of been, lets think about what is. Im returning to this school in September to finish my GCSE's and do what I could of done 3 years ago but didn't. Going back now is going to be hard, I'm a whole new me and many people know and remember my past. But it's gone, and I need to accept that. I cant hide forever and I'm going to make my former self proud. That girl didn't have a clue what her actions were leading to, and I fucking wish someone had warned her. So I'm warning you, if you're reading this and you're stuck in relapse mode, think about what situation your future self will be in. I had so many opportunities to shine and I didnt, but its never too late. Think about the life you want to live, does throwing the sandwich in the bin lead you any closer? Does missing social events lead you any closer? Does skipping 2 years of school lead you any closer? Be your own role model, make your past self proud. Because you might have struggled an awful lot back then with whatever it may be, and you cant change that. But you can do something to mould your future❤️
Day 1 of not calorie counting...will be my usual day of eating though I won't be doing much different and I basically know the calories in every fucking thing but I'm not tracking it - achievement 💪🏻 got up and had breakfast, walked barney, worked out, ate snack, changed and then had the dentist 😩 however it went really well and he said my teeth were perfect and I had good oral health 😆 now home chilling with lunch which is a chicken slice toastie with BBQ sauce as I'm currently obsessed and sauces are fears so I need to challenge that 🤔 going to spend the afternoon baking with mum 🍰 and then I'm going to the cinema tonight which I'm looking forward to. 😁 I'm not going to lie I'm getting very nervous over going to derby tomorrow to go out clubbing with my friends (one of my friends has moved there for his placement) the food will be all over the place and I haven't planned anything - I have brought a porridge pot and some belvitas to take just in case but I doubt I'll have them. It'll be even harder as I won't be tracking what I have but at the same time it'll probably be quite freeing to not have to count every single thing I eat. I'll also be having ALCOHOL - liquid calories are still a fear of mine so what a way to challenge this. Currently loving life, things are really going my way at the minute. Can't wait to start my job, earn some money. I have thoughts of going backwards and restricting but I'm never going to give in to them, I'm stronger than anorexia. I've spent far to many years under the grips of anorexia and mental illnesses it's now my time to live. Hope everyone has a great weekend and I will try and update while I'm away ❤️ #anxiety#ana#anorexia#anorexic#anawarrior#anorexianervosarecovery#anarecovery#anorexianervosa#anorexiarecovery#ed#edfamily#edwarrior#eatittobeatit#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#recovery#prorecovery#inspiration#weightloss#inpatient#weightgain#weightrestored#strongnotskinny#foodisfuel#fuckana#balancednotclean#boobsoverbones
My name is Mia, and I suffered from an eating disorder. I am sharing this photo, rather than a picture or selfie of myself to stand in solidarity with other eating disorder sufferers. Eating disorders do not have a specific look, age, weight, religion, race, gender or ethnicity. I am #fearlesslyfaceless and I am fighting against the stereotypes of any illness.
Spontaneous Greggs breakfast 👍🏻My body image has been complete 💩 for days now, and thoughts needed silencing so here i am 👅 Also to anyone getting results today, well done!! no matter what results you receive completing any exams/coursework is a feat in itself you should be extremely proud of! ✨ Results day is not make or break i promise, and you can go on to do incredible things either way ❤ Hope you all have a lovely day beauts ✨
Buon pomeriggio family 🌷
Mattinata passata in spiaggia 🌊, passeggiata sul lungomare e ho fatto una telefonata con la mia bear 🐻📞♥️
Per pranzo mi sono ascoltata, e soprattutto mi sono adattata a ciò che ha preparato mia mamma, aggiungendoci solo la fonte proteica. Perciò pour moi:
••pasta al pesto con fagiolini 🌱 basilico 🌿 e una scatoletta di tonno. È stato un esperimento azzardato😅 ma devo dire che la combo pesto+tonno non è male!
È meno tonno del mio solito e lo ammetto apertamente. Non avevo voglia di prenderne un'altra. MA ho recuperato mangiando un pezzo di grana 🧀💪🏼🤙🏼
E posso dire una cosa? Questo pranzo per me è una vittoria. Pesto, piatto che navigava nell'olio, grana non pesato mangiato perché NE AVEVO VOGLIA... e sapete un'altra cosa? Pensieri pari a zero 👌🏼
Non so perché ma a vedere la mia famiglia che mangia con gusto e anche in abbondanza, mi tranquillizza e aiuta molto!
Ora mi guardò un episodio di Got (@ginger.milk ti penso 💕) e poi studio. Credo che tornerò in spiaggia più tardi, perché voglio tuffarmi nell'acqua tiepida di sera 🌅 estasera arriva anche la mia sorellina! Che è stata a Dubai 🖕🏼🖕🏼 e mi manca un sacco. Così saremo tutti e tre fratelli riuniti. Non capita davvero mai, perciò ci tengo tantissimo a questi momenti.
Buongiorno family!! Come state?
Io mi sono svegliata nell'oasi del paradiso. Casa in mezzo alla pineta🌲, con il mare 🌊 a 50 metri.
Infatti ora mi metto il costume e volo!!
Grazie a Dio la mia amica è un'amante dei pancake come me, così me ne sono preparato qualcuno da portare via. Stamattina infatti era lì che mi aspettava in frigo 🤗, gusto nuovo che ho adorato!
•pancake fatta con farina di riso, farina di lucuma @myproteinit e cannella. Farcito con yogurt greco bianco 🍦 e albicocca 🍑
Era delicatissimo, retrogusto vanigliato e la cannella lo rendeva ancora meglio!! Pure mio fratello lo ha assaggiato e ha approvato 👍🏼 e vuol dire tanto!!😜
Voi cosa farete oggi family? Piani particolari 🍾🍹 per ferragosto?
PS. Grazie immensamente per i commenti sotto la foto. Vi adoro, non smetterò mai di dirlo!! Mi raccomando venire il 3 settembre a Milano così vi abbraccio tutti!!♥️
Dinner tonight was beans on toast, plain and simple comfort food, needed when the weather is so rubbish 👎🏻 Then dessert was this Oreo split yoghurt, something different for me and not ice cream! 😂 It was ok for a change but lets be honest nothing beats ice cream 👅 Hope everyone has had a lovely day ✨