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🍥 It's been a weird few months. I've kept basically all of it off of Instagram for...well, a number of reasons. Things are okay now, just to clarify. Back in August, though, I'd once again fallen into the sticky mindtrap of wanting to starve myself to death, but played it off with smiles here (I'm sorry, I don't know why I didn't reach out to people I love on here as well... it feels so long ago now, like a different me...). I saw this whole life experience as pointless - a bad book I had been reading too long. Something to set down and walk away from. I even SH'ed after years of recovery. Essentially, I was capital-D DONE. Universe, just try & stop me. 👻 One day, I literally laid down and said, "Fine, God, do what you want with me. It's your will, so do something interesting - or I will keep destructing." Finally, for the last time, as it ~should have been~ finished years ago. ⏳ But something - God, love, a higher power, the universe, Neil Degrasse Tyson... heck, SOMEONE stepped in and flipped that plan absolutely upside-down... Running out of room, so this is { to be continued }. 🍥
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#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #realrecovery #adultswitheds #prorecovery #recovery #anarecovery #edwarrior #edfam #edcommunity #edfighter #anxiety #cptsd #mentalhealth #depression #ptsd #bipolar #balancednotclean #healing #wisdom #bodymods #piercings #healthy #recover #meditation #mentalillness
🍥 It's been a weird few months. I've kept basically all of it off of Instagram for...well, a number of reasons. Things are okay now, just to clarify. Back in August, though, I'd once again fallen into the sticky mindtrap of wanting to starve myself to death, but played it off with smiles here (I'm sorry, I don't know why I didn't reach out to people I love on here as well... it feels so long ago now, like a different me...). I saw this whole life experience as pointless - a bad book I had been reading too long. Something to set down and walk away from. I even SH'ed after years of recovery. Essentially, I was capital-D DONE. Universe, just try & stop me. 👻 One day, I literally laid down and said, "Fine, God, do what you want with me. It's your will, so do something interesting - or I will keep destructing." Finally, for the last time, as it ~should have been~ finished years ago. ⏳ But something - God, love, a higher power, the universe, Neil Degrasse Tyson... heck, SOMEONE stepped in and flipped that plan absolutely upside-down... Running out of room, so this is { to be continued }. 🍥 . #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #realrecovery  #adultswitheds  #prorecovery  #recovery  #anarecovery  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edfighter  #anxiety  #cptsd  #mentalhealth  #depression  #ptsd  #bipolar  #balancednotclean  #healing  #wisdom  #bodymods  #piercings  #healthy  #recover  #meditation  #mentalillness 
Seattle based @reita.johnston, Trauma Informed Life Coach and Reiki practitioner is back on our YouTube Channel offering ideas and strategies for human service providers on how to address concepts of change and transition for clients. You can check out more about Reita at www.reitajohnston.com. Link to YouTube video is in bio.
Seattle based @reita.johnston, Trauma Informed Life Coach and Reiki practitioner is back on our YouTube Channel offering ideas and strategies for human service providers on how to address concepts of change and transition for clients. You can check out more about Reita at www.reitajohnston.com. Link to YouTube video is in bio.
It wasn't a boy who broke my heart, and it wasn't 'love' or a relationship. My heart was broken long before I ever met any boy and by that time I had no heart to break #brokenheart #lifewithoutlove #heartache #anxiety #ptsd #cptsd #narcissisticabuse #iwillnotbesilenced #badday #nowayout #oneday #recovery
Thrive! Say what?! Yes, THRIVE! Shift out of victim mentality, arise from survivor awareness and kick yourself into the THRIVE high gear! How? Well, you can’t THRIVE if you don’t fuel your body, mind, heart, spirit with healthy ingredients. For today choose one thing that each part of you needs that’s healthy and live it! Include those around you. Ask those around you what they’d like to do this weekend to THRIVE! Do you need some good food, some brain food to inspire the mind, some tlc for the heart, some spiritual juice to revive you? It’s your choice! Go for it! #ican #wecan #liveextraordinary #liveauthentic #mentalhealthcoach #womeninspiringwomen #menshealth #mindfulness #anxiety #depression #ptsd #cptsd #aspergers #epilepsy #thrive #soulcare #soulfact thanks to @davidbeckham for the inspiration and gorgeous photo!
Thrive! Say what?! Yes, THRIVE! Shift out of victim mentality, arise from survivor awareness and kick yourself into the THRIVE high gear! How? Well, you can’t THRIVE if you don’t fuel your body, mind, heart, spirit with healthy ingredients. For today choose one thing that each part of you needs that’s healthy and live it! Include those around you. Ask those around you what they’d like to do this weekend to THRIVE! Do you need some good food, some brain food to inspire the mind, some tlc for the heart, some spiritual juice to revive you? It’s your choice! Go for it! #ican  #wecan  #liveextraordinary  #liveauthentic  #mentalhealthcoach  #womeninspiringwomen  #menshealth  #mindfulness  #anxiety  #depression  #ptsd  #cptsd  #aspergers  #epilepsy  #thrive  #soulcare  #soulfact  thanks to @davidbeckham for the inspiration and gorgeous photo!
Watching this on #hulu and I'm laughing so hard after only a few minutes! #toofunnytofail #danacarvey #stephencolbert #stevecarell #robertsmigel #jonglaser #memorylane #thedanacarveyshow
It's sad how when people get jealous or see you as a competition, they end up bringing you down just to make themselves feel better! It's absolutely appalling, there is NO excuse for bullying someone and making them feel worthless. •
DMs are always open🖤
It's sad how when people get jealous or see you as a competition, they end up bringing you down just to make themselves feel better! It's absolutely appalling, there is NO excuse for bullying someone and making them feel worthless. • DMs are always open🖤
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When shame hits it's pretty well instant 🔥
I could feel on top of the world and CRASH. 
I'm on my knees.
Triggers can be minor.
Triggers can be innocent.
It takes seconds for a trigger to strike and tunnel vision to set in. 
I become hyper aware that my biological code is flawed. I am a high pitch sound in a world full of music. The eyes in the room start to dart to me and the scent of my unworthiness is in the air. 
I find the most effective tool for avoiding crisis and extinguishing my shame is to go for a run. Something about fighting fire with fire 🔥 that brings the world back into high definition🔜😎
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#vulnerability #triggered #healing #mentalhealth #recovery #bpdrecovery #bpd #cptsd #complextrauma #ptsd #mentalillness #selfworth #metoo  #mentalillnessawareness #feels #feelings #borderlinepersonality #edrecovery #abuse #mooddisorder #therapy #anxiety #depression #bethechange #suicideprevention #dbt #distresstolerance #mooddisorder #ptsd #selflove
. When shame hits it's pretty well instant 🔥 I could feel on top of the world and CRASH. I'm on my knees. Triggers can be minor. Triggers can be innocent. It takes seconds for a trigger to strike and tunnel vision to set in. I become hyper aware that my biological code is flawed. I am a high pitch sound in a world full of music. The eyes in the room start to dart to me and the scent of my unworthiness is in the air. I find the most effective tool for avoiding crisis and extinguishing my shame is to go for a run. Something about fighting fire with fire 🔥 that brings the world back into high definition🔜😎 . . . . . . . #vulnerability  #triggered  #healing  #mentalhealth  #recovery  #bpdrecovery  #bpd  #cptsd  #complextrauma  #ptsd  #mentalillness  #selfworth  #metoo  #mentalillnessawareness  #feels  #feelings  #borderlinepersonality  #edrecovery  #abuse  #mooddisorder  #therapy  #anxiety  #depression  #bethechange  #suicideprevention  #dbt  #distresstolerance  #mooddisorder  #ptsd  #selflove 
🎃🌿 Breakfast this morning was (yet another) pancake with crunchy peanut butter and maple syrup. 😊🌿🎃
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#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #realrecovery #adultswitheds #prorecovery #recovery #anarecovery #edwarrior #edfam #edcommunity #edfighter #anxiety #cptsd #mentalhealth #depression #ptsd #balancednotclean #vegetarian #breakfastoftheday #breakfast #pancakes #healthy #wisdom #healing #rustic #homedecor
We have a few more days left in October to be the voice and advocate for those that are victims of bullying. People who bully, especially as an adult, have some serious narcissistic issues and it’s just sick to try to kick someone while they are already down. In attempts to make themselves look better to others and feel better about themselves, they are in fact creating the opposite effect. It’s cowardly, shameful, and a disgrace to disrespect someone for your own personal gain. Rant over. 
#bully #bullying #stopbullying #october #antibullying #awareness month. #riseabove #loveyourself #positivity #positivevibes #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #depression #anxiety #depressed #fear #sad #bpd #bipolar #ocd #trauma #ptsd #cptsd #abuse #treatment #recovery #hope #love
We have a few more days left in October to be the voice and advocate for those that are victims of bullying. People who bully, especially as an adult, have some serious narcissistic issues and it’s just sick to try to kick someone while they are already down. In attempts to make themselves look better to others and feel better about themselves, they are in fact creating the opposite effect. It’s cowardly, shameful, and a disgrace to disrespect someone for your own personal gain. Rant over. #bully  #bullying  #stopbullying  #october  #antibullying  #awareness  month. #riseabove  #loveyourself  #positivity  #positivevibes  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #anxiety  #depressed  #fear  #sad  #bpd  #bipolar  #ocd  #trauma  #ptsd  #cptsd  #abuse  #treatment  #recovery  #hope  #love 
Day 5 of #SpoonieYogaTribe is happy baby pose ✨
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 QOTD : Who has been your biggest supporter throughout your pain/illness? ✨
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This was a hard question for me. I have to say most of my support has been finding other spoonies online. Connecting with them and hearing other's stories and tips has been crucial for feeling like I'm not the only one. Lately it has been Gaea, as she always knows when I need cuddles. ✨
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Our Spoonie Hosts: 🥄 @sleepysantosha @theycallmegumby @life.with.kimberli @weall_floaton 💜 Our Generous Sponsors: @matcha.now @shideaword  @positivecreationss @baekiiara  @sleepysantosha
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#mindbodysoul #intuitiveliving #spoonie  #intuitiveexercise #therapy #equilibro #yogamagic #kitty #cptsd #support #comfort #understanding #iwillwhatiwant  #healingenergy #gordibuena #gratitude #heartchakra #allow #seek #yogaathome  #crazysexyyoga #yogaforbeginners #yogaforeverybody #yogatherapy
Day 5 of #SpoonieYogaTribe  is happy baby pose ✨ ✨ QOTD : Who has been your biggest supporter throughout your pain/illness? ✨ ✨✨ This was a hard question for me. I have to say most of my support has been finding other spoonies online. Connecting with them and hearing other's stories and tips has been crucial for feeling like I'm not the only one. Lately it has been Gaea, as she always knows when I need cuddles. ✨ ✨ 💚 Spoonie Yoga Tribe : Our Spoonie Hosts: 🥄 @sleepysantosha @theycallmegumby @life.with.kimberli @weall_floaton 💜 Our Generous Sponsors: @matcha.now @shideaword  @positivecreationss @baekiiara  @sleepysantosha . . . . . . . . #mindbodysoul  #intuitiveliving  #spoonie  #intuitiveexercise  #therapy  #equilibro  #yogamagic  #kitty  #cptsd  #support  #comfort  #understanding  #iwillwhatiwant  #healingenergy  #gordibuena  #gratitude  #heartchakra  #allow  #seek  #yogaathome  #crazysexyyoga  #yogaforbeginners  #yogaforeverybody  #yogatherapy 
I know the fight you fight. I too have been abused, taken for granted, slandered, lied on and lied to, manipulated, punished, silenced, held captive mentally, stabbed in the back and in the heart, taken advantage of, verbally bashed, felt alone and abandoned. As our tears flow we must remember not to give up! You are not who they say you are! You have a right to get lost in a sea of emotions because you like me, have been through so much! Take one day at a time or one moment at a time. Just please what ever you do keep moving forward and never give up. #dontgiveup #survive #onedayatatime #seekpeace #quotestoliveby #quotes #freedomawaits #pain #perseverance #growth #lifeafterdivorce #codependent #ptsd #cptsd #abusesurvivor #narcissisticabuse
I know the fight you fight. I too have been abused, taken for granted, slandered, lied on and lied to, manipulated, punished, silenced, held captive mentally, stabbed in the back and in the heart, taken advantage of, verbally bashed, felt alone and abandoned. As our tears flow we must remember not to give up! You are not who they say you are! You have a right to get lost in a sea of emotions because you like me, have been through so much! Take one day at a time or one moment at a time. Just please what ever you do keep moving forward and never give up. #dontgiveup  #survive  #onedayatatime  #seekpeace  #quotestoliveby  #quotes  #freedomawaits  #pain  #perseverance  #growth  #lifeafterdivorce  #codependent  #ptsd  #cptsd  #abusesurvivor  #narcissisticabuse 
I struggle with #CPTSD, #depression, and #anxiety. The symptoms become worse when I don't take inventory of all that I have and all that I am. I am not just all the bad and traumatic experiences of my life. I am so much light, even with all the shadows I'm currently working through. #selfcaresoulja #mentalhealthwarrior #breakthestigma #therapyworks
The dream versus the reality #spoonie
The dream versus the reality #spoonie 
I found old crappy photos of some pumpkins I've done in the past! My Obama was my favorite, and first time with a stencil. It was 2008 and I had just moved in here with my ex, who was for McCain. Naturally I felt the need for a pumpkin showing him how it was going to be!😁 #pumpkin #obama #colbert #mrpotatohead #joker #carvedpumpkin #halloween #jackolantern
I've been through a lot in my short time of living only 17 years now. All throughout my life I've done things to please other ppl, shut my mouth when I have something to say that is how I feel , conceal my emotions so that THEIR feelings don't get hurt or so I don't get yelled at. All of these things and more all so I can get acceptance from other ppl and I didn't even accept myself. I would look for ppl to bring into my life so I could be "saved" from the damage that my abuse has done. But now I realize no one can save me but myself.  The only person in my mind everyday and even with ppl I feel empty so no they aren't my cure and I can go on without anyone. Honestly now I just stopped giving a fuck cause I'm fed up with pain. I don't care if no one accepts me I accept me and if you don't then go fuck yourself and keep your impossible standards over there. People come and go and heartbreak is a part of life. Sometimes you need to get hurt to realize your own worth. Realize that NO I don't deserve this who said the way I am is wrong and who gave them the right. As long as I don't then they have no right. I'll have some bad days because of my disorder of course even with the confidence and self worth I'm building for myself. But I'm a person and I'm not my disorder. I'm not depression, cptsd, or anxiety. I have feelings and dreams I'm not what's wrong with me. Some ppl didn't get that and I don't want anyone's pity. Just UNDERSTANDING and accept that this is a part of who I am but ISNT who I am. And whoever can't give me that can fuck themselves.
#selfworth #confidence #cptsd #depressionawareness #anxiety #myownhero
I've been through a lot in my short time of living only 17 years now. All throughout my life I've done things to please other ppl, shut my mouth when I have something to say that is how I feel , conceal my emotions so that THEIR feelings don't get hurt or so I don't get yelled at. All of these things and more all so I can get acceptance from other ppl and I didn't even accept myself. I would look for ppl to bring into my life so I could be "saved" from the damage that my abuse has done. But now I realize no one can save me but myself. The only person in my mind everyday and even with ppl I feel empty so no they aren't my cure and I can go on without anyone. Honestly now I just stopped giving a fuck cause I'm fed up with pain. I don't care if no one accepts me I accept me and if you don't then go fuck yourself and keep your impossible standards over there. People come and go and heartbreak is a part of life. Sometimes you need to get hurt to realize your own worth. Realize that NO I don't deserve this who said the way I am is wrong and who gave them the right. As long as I don't then they have no right. I'll have some bad days because of my disorder of course even with the confidence and self worth I'm building for myself. But I'm a person and I'm not my disorder. I'm not depression, cptsd, or anxiety. I have feelings and dreams I'm not what's wrong with me. Some ppl didn't get that and I don't want anyone's pity. Just UNDERSTANDING and accept that this is a part of who I am but ISNT who I am. And whoever can't give me that can fuck themselves. #selfworth  #confidence  #cptsd  #depressionawareness  #anxiety  #myownhero 
This is how to many kids grow up today. 
And did yesterday. 
Words like;
"- If it wasn't for you I would have been able to work more/earn more money/could have travelled/ been able to rest/have more fun/able to find a new spouse/get remarried/been able to date/have more fun in my life, of your mother (father) just took more care of you, he (she) doesn't care about you" and so on...
Out of loyalty the child stay silent, and don't tell anyone what the parents say about the other.
How does this child feels?
Wanted?
Loved?
No, the child think (s)he is the one to blame, bc (s)he exist, only as a problem that must be "fixed".
Yet (s)he never asked to exist. (S)he will just feel like (s)he is a huge living mistake... This is abuse.
Child abuse!

We all need to think twice or much more, about what we really tells our Childs!
I am certainly NO roadmodel.
I try, and fight, so hard every day for my son, to make him feel Loved, and wanted, no matter how, or what happens, what he do or not do.
I tell him God love and help him, and that I will love him no matter what happens in life. 🙏
I put him first.
He is #1 in my life 💚💚💚 We MUST help each other, so we don't repeat our parents mistakes. 💜💜💜💜💜💜 #repost @narcissistic_abuse_community 
#narcology #narcopath #sociopath #psychopath #psychologicalabuse #destroyer #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #abuser #parents #terrorist #terror #horror #devilindisguise #abuse #lies #liar #liarsclub #ptsdawareness #ptsd #cptsd #childabuse #narcisstic #parents
This is how to many kids grow up today. And did yesterday. Words like; "- If it wasn't for you I would have been able to work more/earn more money/could have travelled/ been able to rest/have more fun/able to find a new spouse/get remarried/been able to date/have more fun in my life, of your mother (father) just took more care of you, he (she) doesn't care about you" and so on... Out of loyalty the child stay silent, and don't tell anyone what the parents say about the other. How does this child feels? Wanted? Loved? No, the child think (s)he is the one to blame, bc (s)he exist, only as a problem that must be "fixed". Yet (s)he never asked to exist. (S)he will just feel like (s)he is a huge living mistake... This is abuse. Child abuse! We all need to think twice or much more, about what we really tells our Childs! I am certainly NO roadmodel. I try, and fight, so hard every day for my son, to make him feel Loved, and wanted, no matter how, or what happens, what he do or not do. I tell him God love and help him, and that I will love him no matter what happens in life. 🙏 I put him first. He is #1  in my life 💚💚💚 We MUST help each other, so we don't repeat our parents mistakes. 💜💜💜💜💜💜 #repost  @narcissistic_abuse_community #narcology  #narcopath  #sociopath  #psychopath  #psychologicalabuse  #destroyer  #narcissist  #narcissisticabuse  #abuser  #parents  #terrorist  #terror  #horror  #devilindisguise  #abuse  #lies  #liar  #liarsclub  #ptsdawareness  #ptsd  #cptsd  #childabuse  #narcisstic  #parents 
I've always been a fighter & I'm proud of myself #imawarrior #imafighter #qotd #instadaily #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #anxiety #cptsd #depression
This. Like most people right now I'm curious to see the path that Hollywood (and the world) takes post-weinstien. To see a child actor (a great one, but not the point) stand up and say NO, not my agent, not around me- is incredible. #finnwolfhard is at such a crucial stage in his career where he's going to go on as the kid who started in great horror, or "remember that kid that did #strangerthings and #it " . Speaking out and firing his entire agency when his agent was accused takes such a level of bravery and selflessness, that my heart is just melting for him. Kudos Finn 👏👏👏💖 #metoo #sexualassault #abuse #weinstein I do believe the children are the future. @finnwolfhardofficial
This. Like most people right now I'm curious to see the path that Hollywood (and the world) takes post-weinstien. To see a child actor (a great one, but not the point) stand up and say NO, not my agent, not around me- is incredible. #finnwolfhard  is at such a crucial stage in his career where he's going to go on as the kid who started in great horror, or "remember that kid that did #strangerthings  and #it  " . Speaking out and firing his entire agency when his agent was accused takes such a level of bravery and selflessness, that my heart is just melting for him. Kudos Finn 👏👏👏💖 #metoo  #sexualassault  #abuse  #weinstein  I do believe the children are the future. @finnwolfhardofficial
💯. I took a "nap" at 4 pm yesterday, not waking up until 8:30! Then, I moved to my bed where I was back asleep by 11:30 and slept through the night! So why do I want to just lay here still?! All of this without meds or cannabis, just sleep. #fuckfatigue
💯. I took a "nap" at 4 pm yesterday, not waking up until 8:30! Then, I moved to my bed where I was back asleep by 11:30 and slept through the night! So why do I want to just lay here still?! All of this without meds or cannabis, just sleep. #fuckfatigue 
Do you know what triggers you? Identifying your personal triggers is empowering. It enables you to express your needs and boundaries to those you love and it gives them a better understanding of you and gives them an opportunity to support you. Figuring out what helps you when experiencing an "emotional flashback" (way harder to recognize than a visual one) can be what makes or breaks you in that moment. If you have state management techniques you can self soothe/self parent out of days even weeks of toxic shame/guilt. Some of the things that help me deal with an emotional flashback/trigger is saying out loud that I am in fact triggered, having a flashback and telling myself "I am here!" (Bringing me to the present moment out of the past experience). Telling myself "I am safe!" (Comforting myself and also reminding me I am in fact not in danger as I was in the past). Getting outside, in nature. (Huge!) Something about being outside calms me down, especially when I'm running outdoors. Juicing organic fresh pressed juice. (Flooding my body with nutrients to fight off all the negative chemicals associated with anxiety and stress levels). Reaching out to a friend just for simple conversation (reminds me I'm not completely alone). What are some things that help you? Sharing your experiences and what helps, helps all of us. 
#abusesurvivorsunite #triggers #cptsd #emotionalflashback #invisiblewounds #nature #exercise #community #presentmoment #organicjuice #statemanagement
Do you know what triggers you? Identifying your personal triggers is empowering. It enables you to express your needs and boundaries to those you love and it gives them a better understanding of you and gives them an opportunity to support you. Figuring out what helps you when experiencing an "emotional flashback" (way harder to recognize than a visual one) can be what makes or breaks you in that moment. If you have state management techniques you can self soothe/self parent out of days even weeks of toxic shame/guilt. Some of the things that help me deal with an emotional flashback/trigger is saying out loud that I am in fact triggered, having a flashback and telling myself "I am here!" (Bringing me to the present moment out of the past experience). Telling myself "I am safe!" (Comforting myself and also reminding me I am in fact not in danger as I was in the past). Getting outside, in nature. (Huge!) Something about being outside calms me down, especially when I'm running outdoors. Juicing organic fresh pressed juice. (Flooding my body with nutrients to fight off all the negative chemicals associated with anxiety and stress levels). Reaching out to a friend just for simple conversation (reminds me I'm not completely alone). What are some things that help you? Sharing your experiences and what helps, helps all of us. #abusesurvivorsunite  #triggers  #cptsd  #emotionalflashback  #invisiblewounds  #nature  #exercise  #community  #presentmoment  #organicjuice  #statemanagement 
So Spot on!!!
For the third time, I  once again repeat the same text;
It doesn't matter if it is a She or He.
They control and use manipulation, to concuer, rule and destroy. 
Use evil ways to get what they need and want, no matter who they hurt, even it is their own child. 
They don't care, believe me!!!
Faithfulness doesn't exist in their world. 
They only use ppl to claims and gain things or status in any way.
Beware.
And share. 
Enlight ppl about them.
Share your story to help others.
Lets help each other!
💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 #repost @narcissistic_abuse_lifecoach 
@hoogidoogi @armas_76 
#narcology #narcopath #sociopath #psychopath #psychologicalabuse #destroyer #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #abuser #parents #terrorist #terror #horror #devilindisguise #abuse #lies #liar #liarsclub #ptsdawareness #ptsd #cptsd
So Spot on!!! For the third time, I once again repeat the same text; It doesn't matter if it is a She or He. They control and use manipulation, to concuer, rule and destroy. Use evil ways to get what they need and want, no matter who they hurt, even it is their own child. They don't care, believe me!!! Faithfulness doesn't exist in their world. They only use ppl to claims and gain things or status in any way. Beware. And share. Enlight ppl about them. Share your story to help others. Lets help each other! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 #repost  @narcissistic_abuse_lifecoach @hoogidoogi @armas_76 #narcology  #narcopath  #sociopath  #psychopath  #psychologicalabuse  #destroyer  #narcissist  #narcissisticabuse  #abuser  #parents  #terrorist  #terror  #horror  #devilindisguise  #abuse  #lies  #liar  #liarsclub  #ptsdawareness  #ptsd  #cptsd 
Again;
It doesn't matter if it is a She or He.
They control and use manipulation, to concuer, rule and destroy. 
Use evil ways to get what they need and want, no matter who they hurt, even it is their own child. 
They don't care, believe me!!!
Faithfulness doesn't exist in their world. 
They only use ppl to claims and gain things or status in any way.
Beware.
And share. 
Enlight ppl about them.
Share your story to help others.
Lets help each other!
💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 @hoogidoogi
@armas_76 #repost @narcissistic_abuse_lifecoach
#narcology #narcopath #sociopath #psychopath #psychologicalabuse #destroyer #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #abuser #parents #terrorist #terror #horror #devilindisguise #abuse #lies #liar #liarsclub #ptsdawareness #ptsd #cptsd
Again; It doesn't matter if it is a She or He. They control and use manipulation, to concuer, rule and destroy. Use evil ways to get what they need and want, no matter who they hurt, even it is their own child. They don't care, believe me!!! Faithfulness doesn't exist in their world. They only use ppl to claims and gain things or status in any way. Beware. And share. Enlight ppl about them. Share your story to help others. Lets help each other! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 @hoogidoogi @armas_76 #repost  @narcissistic_abuse_lifecoach #narcology  #narcopath  #sociopath  #psychopath  #psychologicalabuse  #destroyer  #narcissist  #narcissisticabuse  #abuser  #parents  #terrorist  #terror  #horror  #devilindisguise  #abuse  #lies  #liar  #liarsclub  #ptsdawareness  #ptsd  #cptsd 
🐱🐶 Bast & Anubis. What was your favorite ancient culture as a kid? And what is your favorite to learn about now - if you can even choose! 😅🐶🐱
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#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #realrecovery #adultswitheds #prorecovery #recovery #anarecovery #edwarrior #edfam #edcommunity #edfighter #anxiety #cptsd #mentalhealth #depression #ptsd #balancednotclean #vegetarian #healthy #wisdom #culture #piercings #bodymods #tattoos
It doesn't matter if it is a She or He.
They control and use manipulation, to concuer, rule and destroy. 
Use evil ways to get what they need and want, no matter who they hurt, even it is their own child. 
They don't care, believe me!!!
Faithfulness doesn't exist in their world. 
They only use ppl to claims and gain things or status in any way.
Beware.
And share. 
Enlight ppl about them.
Share your story to help others.
Lets help each other!
💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 #repost @narcissistic_abuse_community 
#narcology #narcopath #sociopath #psychopath #psychologicalabuse #destroyer #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #abuser #parents #terrorist #terror #horror #devilindisguise #abuse #lies #liar #liarsclub #ptsdawareness #ptsd #cptsd
It doesn't matter if it is a She or He. They control and use manipulation, to concuer, rule and destroy. Use evil ways to get what they need and want, no matter who they hurt, even it is their own child. They don't care, believe me!!! Faithfulness doesn't exist in their world. They only use ppl to claims and gain things or status in any way. Beware. And share. Enlight ppl about them. Share your story to help others. Lets help each other! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 #repost  @narcissistic_abuse_community #narcology  #narcopath  #sociopath  #psychopath  #psychologicalabuse  #destroyer  #narcissist  #narcissisticabuse  #abuser  #parents  #terrorist  #terror  #horror  #devilindisguise  #abuse  #lies  #liar  #liarsclub  #ptsdawareness  #ptsd  #cptsd 
I love this #lipstick so much! It's called Vampire Night from #makeuprevolution. Also I really like some of these photos. My mother would have a heart attack if she saw me looking like this! #bodyreclamation  #abuserecovery #cptsd #makeup
Happy Saturday! 🌟To say the past 5 days have been rough is an understatement. The emptiness I feel inside has widened from my heart to my entire body.  I notice myself craving validation from someone I shouldn’t be wanting it from nor am I ever going to get it from and even if he did give it to me I’d just end up mad at myself anyway…. It’s so hard to find ways to fill a void that once made you feel so good. I just want to hear him say it but even if he does will it even make a difference? It hasn’t in the past so why would it now? It was always temporary. How do you fill a void without needing validation from anyone else? I was walking yesterday and it became so clear to me that I need to focus more attention on my self love practice. This is what happens - I get caught up in “real life” and forget about how important it is to focus on my recovery. I don’t want to feel lonely anymore. I am the one who can fill that void. The fact that I can even acknowledge this tells me that my soul really is rooting for me.  I need to cheer for myself and I also need a big hug.
Happy Saturday! 🌟To say the past 5 days have been rough is an understatement. The emptiness I feel inside has widened from my heart to my entire body.  I notice myself craving validation from someone I shouldn’t be wanting it from nor am I ever going to get it from and even if he did give it to me I’d just end up mad at myself anyway…. It’s so hard to find ways to fill a void that once made you feel so good. I just want to hear him say it but even if he does will it even make a difference? It hasn’t in the past so why would it now? It was always temporary. How do you fill a void without needing validation from anyone else? I was walking yesterday and it became so clear to me that I need to focus more attention on my self love practice. This is what happens - I get caught up in “real life” and forget about how important it is to focus on my recovery. I don’t want to feel lonely anymore. I am the one who can fill that void. The fact that I can even acknowledge this tells me that my soul really is rooting for me.  I need to cheer for myself and I also need a big hug.
Day 26 #rivermoodproject: tfw you realise you have to go all the way to #germany to build in #hilltraining.... Still wouldn't swap it though, #blessed to experience this amazing scene along the #maas every day (no #jackrussell he's in opa daycare, and a bit earlier as we're going to a birthday party this afternoon) #rotterdam #rivers #therapy #bipolar #run #running #healthy #health #selfcare #bpd #PTSD #cptsd #weightloss #riversastherapy #clouds #wateryplaces #boats #yachts #takingbackcontrol #erasmusbrug
Day 26 #rivermoodproject : tfw you realise you have to go all the way to #germany  to build in #hilltraining .... Still wouldn't swap it though, #blessed  to experience this amazing scene along the #maas  every day (no #jackrussell  he's in opa daycare, and a bit earlier as we're going to a birthday party this afternoon) #rotterdam  #rivers  #therapy  #bipolar  #run  #running  #healthy  #health  #selfcare  #bpd  #PTSD  #cptsd  #weightloss  #riversastherapy  #clouds  #wateryplaces  #boats  #yachts  #takingbackcontrol  #erasmusbrug 
If you're a "people pleaser" it's likely you're co-dependent. That label sounds dirty to a lot of people, but it's just a name to explain certain behaviors and ultimately can be changed with practice and repetition. People pleasing does hide the real you... don't hide. Be who you are at your core, just do so with compassion and healthy boundaries both internally and externally. One of the hardest things for me still is expressing (healthy) anger towards someone I care about. I bite my lip to keep the peace when I want to tell them they're being rude, or hurt my feelings, etc. I've gotten better at not exploding in a fit of rage after hiding all my real feelings, but I still bottle them at times. That's also a boundary issue. #workinprogress The most important thing is becoming aware of how you people please and to start working on bettering yourself. If you lose people along the way, don't take it personally. Often times when we are unaware that we have poor boundaries, and are a people pleaser, we attract people who are aware we have poor boundaries and take advantage. They don't like it when we start setting healthy boundaries and will either throw fits, try to change your boundary or remove themselves from your life because you aren't pleasing them anymore. Let them go to make way for people who will respect the real you. What's something you do that hides your authentic (and beautiful) self?

#peoplepleaser #codependent #codependency #authenticity #donthide #donthideyourself #donthidewhoyouare #codependentawareness #invisiblewounds #justbecauseyoucantseeitdoesntmeanitsnotthere #rageagainstthenarcopath #narcissisticabuse #narcissiticabusesurvivor #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticabuseawareness #cptsd #cptsdawareness #childhoodtrauma #childhoodtraumasurvivor #childhoodtraumaawareness #suicide #suicideawareness #survivor #abusesurvivorsunite #yourstoryisnotover #yesyoucan #yeswecan
If you're a "people pleaser" it's likely you're co-dependent. That label sounds dirty to a lot of people, but it's just a name to explain certain behaviors and ultimately can be changed with practice and repetition. People pleasing does hide the real you... don't hide. Be who you are at your core, just do so with compassion and healthy boundaries both internally and externally. One of the hardest things for me still is expressing (healthy) anger towards someone I care about. I bite my lip to keep the peace when I want to tell them they're being rude, or hurt my feelings, etc. I've gotten better at not exploding in a fit of rage after hiding all my real feelings, but I still bottle them at times. That's also a boundary issue. #workinprogress  The most important thing is becoming aware of how you people please and to start working on bettering yourself. If you lose people along the way, don't take it personally. Often times when we are unaware that we have poor boundaries, and are a people pleaser, we attract people who are aware we have poor boundaries and take advantage. They don't like it when we start setting healthy boundaries and will either throw fits, try to change your boundary or remove themselves from your life because you aren't pleasing them anymore. Let them go to make way for people who will respect the real you. What's something you do that hides your authentic (and beautiful) self? #peoplepleaser  #codependent  #codependency  #authenticity  #donthide  #donthideyourself  #donthidewhoyouare  #codependentawareness  #invisiblewounds  #justbecauseyoucantseeitdoesntmeanitsnotthere  #rageagainstthenarcopath  #narcissisticabuse  #narcissiticabusesurvivor  #narcissisticabuserecovery  #narcissisticabuseawareness  #cptsd  #cptsdawareness  #childhoodtrauma  #childhoodtraumasurvivor  #childhoodtraumaawareness  #suicide  #suicideawareness  #survivor  #abusesurvivorsunite  #yourstoryisnotover  #yesyoucan  #yeswecan 
こんばんは〜。
病院の天井笑
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今日は朝から自己嘔吐。また始まってしまった。
朝はマーゲンから入れてる栄養を嘔吐。昼ごはん食べて嘔吐。夜ご飯食べて嘔吐。間食、飲料も嘔吐。
夕方先生きてマーチュー、強制ストップ。マーチューを入れながら吐いてると危険な為。
そらそうなるわな笑
でも、マーチュー抜けたから外出外泊フリー😁
やったね!!とか喜べないわ。
1日嘔吐してただけで凄くダルい。
夕飯の後体重測ったけど朝から±0。
明日の朝減ってますように🙏
看護師さんからは水分不足と何回言われたことか笑
元々水分取らんから取り方が分からん。
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ダルいし頭フラフラだし、もう寝よ。
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#心的外傷後ストレス障害#cptsd#うつ病#対人恐怖症#マーゲン#強制終了#自己嘔吐#嘔吐#受験#新婚#なのに#入院中
こんばんは〜。 病院の天井笑 ・ 今日は朝から自己嘔吐。また始まってしまった。 朝はマーゲンから入れてる栄養を嘔吐。昼ごはん食べて嘔吐。夜ご飯食べて嘔吐。間食、飲料も嘔吐。 夕方先生きてマーチュー、強制ストップ。マーチューを入れながら吐いてると危険な為。 そらそうなるわな笑 でも、マーチュー抜けたから外出外泊フリー😁 やったね!!とか喜べないわ。 1日嘔吐してただけで凄くダルい。 夕飯の後体重測ったけど朝から±0。 明日の朝減ってますように🙏 看護師さんからは水分不足と何回言われたことか笑 元々水分取らんから取り方が分からん。 ・ ダルいし頭フラフラだし、もう寝よ。 ・ #心的外傷後ストレス障害 #cptsd #うつ病 #対人恐怖症 #マーゲン #強制終了 #自己嘔吐 #嘔吐 #受験 #新婚 #なのに #入院中 
Det känns inte så nu, men det kommer en dag när du kommer att kunna andas hela vägen ner i magen igen. När du kan räta på ryggen, se folk i ögonen och öppna hjärtat. ❤️ #cptsd #ptsd
Det känns inte så nu, men det kommer en dag när du kommer att kunna andas hela vägen ner i magen igen. När du kan räta på ryggen, se folk i ögonen och öppna hjärtat. ❤️ #cptsd  #ptsd 
Been trying to write the caption for this all morning, but someone in there is messing with my head!!! So what I wanted to say is  that one of my #alters kindly got up in the night and made us a snack. On waking this morning, my bf congratulated me on getting a snack (small triumphs) but then we both noticed I had not eaten it and that I had no memory of making it 😬😬 I guess demanding positive self care is a step in the right direction even if we don't necessarily follow through!.. 😂😂
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#lifeofakaty #fromtheinsideout #bpd #cptsd #did #alter #amnesia #ednos #identitydisturbance #unmindful #childselves #innerselves #YouAreNotAlone #Takebackcrazy #mycrazylife #MyLifeAsArt #spoonie #MentalHealthMatters #MentalHealthWarrior #MentalHealthArt #NotonHoliday #l
Been trying to write the caption for this all morning, but someone in there is messing with my head!!! So what I wanted to say is that one of my #alters  kindly got up in the night and made us a snack. On waking this morning, my bf congratulated me on getting a snack (small triumphs) but then we both noticed I had not eaten it and that I had no memory of making it 😬😬 I guess demanding positive self care is a step in the right direction even if we don't necessarily follow through!.. 😂😂 . . . #lifeofakaty  #fromtheinsideout  #bpd  #cptsd  #did  #alter  #amnesia  #ednos  #identitydisturbance  #unmindful  #childselves  #innerselves  #YouAreNotAlone  #Takebackcrazy  #mycrazylife  #MyLifeAsArt  #spoonie  #MentalHealthMatters  #MentalHealthWarrior  #MentalHealthArt  #NotonHoliday  #l 
Brussels was great. Travelling always makes me feel better. Now back to the grind... lots of work to do but God gives me strength. Highly recommend Brussels... #topnotch #musicialinstrumentmuseum #pianos #cptsd #ptsd #anxiety #dminor #christian #brussels #travel
The number of children who are victim to physical or sexual assault before the age of eighteen. That's one too many! Become a @polishedman this October and help end violence against children. Together we shine the spotlight to nail it to end it. #polishedman #ipreferapolishedman #whiteribbon #ManUp #NoExcuseForAbuse #childabuse #domesticviolence #loveshouldnthurt #makeadifference #wellbeing #safety #nochildshouldliveinfear #inspiration #takeastand #StandUpSpeakOut #AbusersAreNeverVictims #ViolenceIsAcrime #integrity #recovery #strength #health #family #love #protect #determination #success #losersneverwin #values #cptsd #narcissisticabuse
The number of children who are victim to physical or sexual assault before the age of eighteen. That's one too many! Become a @polishedman this October and help end violence against children. Together we shine the spotlight to nail it to end it. #polishedman  #ipreferapolishedman  #whiteribbon  #ManUp  #NoExcuseForAbuse  #childabuse  #domesticviolence  #loveshouldnthurt  #makeadifference  #wellbeing  #safety  #nochildshouldliveinfear  #inspiration  #takeastand  #StandUpSpeakOut  #AbusersAreNeverVictims  #ViolenceIsAcrime  #integrity  #recovery  #strength  #health  #family  #love  #protect  #determination  #success  #losersneverwin  #values  #cptsd  #narcissisticabuse 
MAYBE THE JOURNEY ISN'T SO MUCH ABOUT BECOMING ANYTHING

MAYBE IT'S ABOUT UNBECOMING EVERYTHING THAT ISN'T REALLY YOU, 
SO YOU CAN BE WHO YOU WERE MEANT TO BE IN THE FIRST PLACE

#trauma #healing #abuse #childabuse #complextrauma #recovery #discovery
#self #lifequotes #toxic #toxicrelationships #toxicpeople #abusiverelationships #relationships #growth #cptsd #ptsd #mentalhealth #mentalillness #
Guten Morgen ❤️ Ein kurzes Lebenszeichen von mir. 
Die letzten Tage waren anstrengend und kräfteraubend. Ich fühle mich derzeit zunehmend hoffnungsloser und verzweifelter. Vielleicht finde ich morgen ein paar passende Worte dazu, jetzt gerade geht es irgendwie nicht. 
Ich werde gleich mit meiner Mutter aufm Flohmarkt fahren, danach gehen wir essen und heute Nachmittag fahre ich mit einer der Lieblingsfreundinnen zu IKEA. Ich werde mir neue Deckenlampen kaufen, die ich neulich beim Lieblingsmensch entdeckt habe und die mir seit dem nicht mehr aus dem Kopf gehen 🙈 Morgen werde ich meinen Ausgang dann nutzen, um sie anzubringen. 
Ich wünsche euch allen ein schönes Wochenende 😘
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexie #magersucht • #depression #depressionrecovery • #ptsd #cptsd #ptsdrecovery • #mentalillness #mentalhealth • #ootd #samstag
Guten Morgen ❤️ Ein kurzes Lebenszeichen von mir. Die letzten Tage waren anstrengend und kräfteraubend. Ich fühle mich derzeit zunehmend hoffnungsloser und verzweifelter. Vielleicht finde ich morgen ein paar passende Worte dazu, jetzt gerade geht es irgendwie nicht. Ich werde gleich mit meiner Mutter aufm Flohmarkt fahren, danach gehen wir essen und heute Nachmittag fahre ich mit einer der Lieblingsfreundinnen zu IKEA. Ich werde mir neue Deckenlampen kaufen, die ich neulich beim Lieblingsmensch entdeckt habe und die mir seit dem nicht mehr aus dem Kopf gehen 🙈 Morgen werde ich meinen Ausgang dann nutzen, um sie anzubringen. Ich wünsche euch allen ein schönes Wochenende 😘 ~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~•~~~ #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexie  #magersucht  • #depression  #depressionrecovery  • #ptsd  #cptsd  #ptsdrecovery  • #mentalillness  #mentalhealth  • #ootd  #samstag 
Do you see him? He is A Survivor Too.

Do you see him?
 The moon is black and the ground is cold
She wants to get out of town, he wants to get laid.
Do you see him?
 He is 2, he is her gorgeous boy.
Blonde hair, brown eyes, giggling, standing, falling, never giving in.
Do you see him?
 He is 4, he is a playful boy.
He is playing a game, daddy likes to watch too.
They put food in mummies nana and he has to get it with his tongue.
Do you see him?
 He is 5, he is a naughty boy.
They are putting his little green soldiers in and out of his bottom really hard and fast to teach him to put his toys away.
Do you see him?
 He is 7, he is a lying boy.
He is hiding in the bushes next door. “That is just not true, no mother would do something like that to her son”, they tell him as they drag him home.
Do you see him?
 He is 9, he is a good boy.
He crawls under their dresses and makes her friends tingle, ‘Just like you do for mummy’.
Sometimes they even take pictures.
Do you see him?
 He is 11, he is a naked boy.
Daddy watches him as the other men laugh at his hairless body. They take turns pulling his dick to make it grow. The pliers hurt the most.
Do you see him?
 He is 13, he is a lonely boy.
The scouts leaders says “let me hold it for you, thats how we become friends”.
Do you see him?
 He is 45, he is a screaming man.
Curled in a ball, sobbing body shudders with memories that are shattering his soul and breaking his mind.
Do you see him?
 He is 50, a broken man.
Nurses a bottle and sucking a barrel.
Do you see him?
 He is 53, he is a relentless man.
His arse will always bleed and his eyes will never dry.
Do you see him?
 He is a survivor too.  by Dr John A. King
 #drjohnaking

http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/do-you-see-him-he-is-a-survivor-too-2/

#dealwithit #poet #drjohnaking #dealwithitbook
#cptsd #myptsd #ptsdinspirational #romantic #ptsdsavior
Do you see him? He is A Survivor Too. Do you see him? The moon is black and the ground is cold She wants to get out of town, he wants to get laid. Do you see him? He is 2, he is her gorgeous boy. Blonde hair, brown eyes, giggling, standing, falling, never giving in. Do you see him? He is 4, he is a playful boy. He is playing a game, daddy likes to watch too. They put food in mummies nana and he has to get it with his tongue. Do you see him? He is 5, he is a naughty boy. They are putting his little green soldiers in and out of his bottom really hard and fast to teach him to put his toys away. Do you see him? He is 7, he is a lying boy. He is hiding in the bushes next door. “That is just not true, no mother would do something like that to her son”, they tell him as they drag him home. Do you see him? He is 9, he is a good boy. He crawls under their dresses and makes her friends tingle, ‘Just like you do for mummy’. Sometimes they even take pictures. Do you see him? He is 11, he is a naked boy. Daddy watches him as the other men laugh at his hairless body. They take turns pulling his dick to make it grow. The pliers hurt the most. Do you see him? He is 13, he is a lonely boy. The scouts leaders says “let me hold it for you, thats how we become friends”. Do you see him? He is 45, he is a screaming man. Curled in a ball, sobbing body shudders with memories that are shattering his soul and breaking his mind. Do you see him? He is 50, a broken man. Nurses a bottle and sucking a barrel. Do you see him? He is 53, he is a relentless man. His arse will always bleed and his eyes will never dry. Do you see him? He is a survivor too. by Dr John A. King #drjohnaking  http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/do-you-see-him-he-is-a-survivor-too-2/ #dealwithit  #poet  #drjohnaking  #dealwithitbook  #cptsd  #myptsd  #ptsdinspirational  #romantic  #ptsdsavior 
To show someone what the depths of their being means to you is a path many undertake, but one we will spend a lifetime trying to outwork. I have friends that I will never be able to show enough gratitude, and many I will never meet that have greatly impacted my life. It reminds me that though are struggles daily, there are people that are matter so much more to me, than I spend time thinking about it. Living between recovery and relapse, business, writing, volunteering, studying, working, it gets crazy sometimes. When I take a step back on a day that may or may not have been tough (cause we encounter them both), I'm reminded that I too have much more meaning and significance to others than just what I can see. Regardless of the day you've had, be encouraged that you mean the world to many people, you greatly impact many people simply being for you, and the world is better because you're in it. Keep on shining, you're amazing xo
To show someone what the depths of their being means to you is a path many undertake, but one we will spend a lifetime trying to outwork. I have friends that I will never be able to show enough gratitude, and many I will never meet that have greatly impacted my life. It reminds me that though are struggles daily, there are people that are matter so much more to me, than I spend time thinking about it. Living between recovery and relapse, business, writing, volunteering, studying, working, it gets crazy sometimes. When I take a step back on a day that may or may not have been tough (cause we encounter them both), I'm reminded that I too have much more meaning and significance to others than just what I can see. Regardless of the day you've had, be encouraged that you mean the world to many people, you greatly impact many people simply being for you, and the world is better because you're in it. Keep on shining, you're amazing xo
🎃🌿 Dinner last night was part of a veggie burrito, chips, and salsa from Chipotle (ate more chips than pictured here 😅). What is your favorite combo from Chipotle? 🍃 Also, time has been moving so strangely for me tonight. I went to bed around 9-10PM after a little wine, woke up several times, but it's barely even 2AM... ⏳😕⌛ Anyway, happy (very early) Saturday. 😺🌿🎃
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#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #realrecovery #adultswitheds #prorecovery #recovery #anarecovery #edwarrior #edfam #edcommunity #edfighter #anxiety #cptsd #mentalhealth #depression #ptsd #balancednotclean #vegetarian #healthy #wisdom #healing #recover #health #homedecor #colorado #chipotle #veggies #burritos
🎃🌿 Dinner last night was part of a veggie burrito, chips, and salsa from Chipotle (ate more chips than pictured here 😅). What is your favorite combo from Chipotle? 🍃 Also, time has been moving so strangely for me tonight. I went to bed around 9-10PM after a little wine, woke up several times, but it's barely even 2AM... ⏳😕⌛ Anyway, happy (very early) Saturday. 😺🌿🎃 . #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #realrecovery  #adultswitheds  #prorecovery  #recovery  #anarecovery  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edfighter  #anxiety  #cptsd  #mentalhealth  #depression  #ptsd  #balancednotclean  #vegetarian  #healthy  #wisdom  #healing  #recover  #health  #homedecor  #colorado  #chipotle  #veggies  #burritos 
Our past is just that; our past. It doesn't determine our future. Let your past be your guide and serve you as a reminder of where not to go or who not to invite in our journey ahead! #ourfuture #ourpast #knowledgeispower #knowyourworth #growth #futureplans #lifeisajourney #lessonlearned #takingcareofyourself #memyselfandi #progress #selflove #selfcare #lifeafterdivorce #brokenheart #quotestoliveby #quotesaboutlife #motivationalquotes #motivation #inspire #faith #healing #onestepatatime #onedayatatime #saturday #codependent #ptsd #cptsd
Our past is just that; our past. It doesn't determine our future. Let your past be your guide and serve you as a reminder of where not to go or who not to invite in our journey ahead! #ourfuture  #ourpast  #knowledgeispower  #knowyourworth  #growth  #futureplans  #lifeisajourney  #lessonlearned  #takingcareofyourself  #memyselfandi  #progress  #selflove  #selfcare  #lifeafterdivorce  #brokenheart  #quotestoliveby  #quotesaboutlife  #motivationalquotes  #motivation  #inspire  #faith  #healing  #onestepatatime  #onedayatatime  #saturday  #codependent  #ptsd  #cptsd 
I've never stopped trying but I'm echausted mentally, physically and emotionally. I don't know what mood I'll. be in from one second to the next. If I meet a stranger I tell them my whole life story, I'm sooo impulsive, I fear abandonment yet I push people away before they can hurt me so basically I'm a loner. It's hard... it's real hard. My anxiety won't allow me walk around my lovely area, I can't cut the front grass because I think everyone's looking, I can't cross the road at traffic lights. Some days I just feel sooo low that I can't get out of bed. I stare at the ceiling not caring about anything.  I either binge or starve . My life's hell. The ONLY reason I keep fighting  is for my beautiful daughters #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #depression #anorexia #anxiety #socialanxiety , #cptsd, #paranoia, #bpd, #mentalillness #qotd #jnstadaily
I've never stopped trying but I'm echausted mentally, physically and emotionally. I don't know what mood I'll. be in from one second to the next. If I meet a stranger I tell them my whole life story, I'm sooo impulsive, I fear abandonment yet I push people away before they can hurt me so basically I'm a loner. It's hard... it's real hard. My anxiety won't allow me walk around my lovely area, I can't cut the front grass because I think everyone's looking, I can't cross the road at traffic lights. Some days I just feel sooo low that I can't get out of bed. I stare at the ceiling not caring about anything. I either binge or starve . My life's hell. The ONLY reason I keep fighting is for my beautiful daughters #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #depression  #anorexia  #anxiety  #socialanxiety  , #cptsd , #paranoia , #bpd , #mentalillness  #qotd  #jnstadaily 
Nouvel article : réflexion sur la socialisation et l'isolement des personnes traumatisées. (lien dans la bio) // New blog post about socialisation and isolation of traumatized people. (link in bio) #neurodivergence #actuallytraumatized #cptsd #ptsd
Nouvel article : réflexion sur la socialisation et l'isolement des personnes traumatisées. (lien dans la bio) // New blog post about socialisation and isolation of traumatized people. (link in bio) #neurodivergence  #actuallytraumatized  #cptsd  #ptsd 
Sweet Moment. Look around, quietly notice who could use some sweet lovin’ from you, now or throughout the weekend. Spread your love around, share your smile, lend an ear. The world will be a better place for it. #sweetmoment #liveextraordinary #soulcare #loveoneanother #authenticliving #anxiety #depression #ptsd #cptsd #epilepsy #aspergers #mindfulness #womeninspiringwomen #menshealth #mentalhealthcoach thanks to @nutmegandhoneybee for the gorgeous picture
Only the development of compassion and understanding for others can bring us the tranquility and happiness we all seek.

Dalai Lama XIV

#Recovery #Awareness
#Cptsd #Mdd #Bpd #Tbi
 #MoralInjury
#Bushido #Zen #Heathen
#Empath #Introvert #Infp
#Borderline #Theories 
#Anxiety #Depression
#Insomnia #NeuralFatigue
#Veteran #Trauma
#TheMind #MentalHealth
"The bravest people are the ones who don't mind looking like cowards." -T.H. White

#fearlessfriday #Yoga #courage #IntegratedMovementTherapy #IMT #Grateful #clouds #trees #sky #evening #cptsd #traumarecovery #TeamSHC
It is nice to get out of the ward for the day after a long hard week of therapy... I feel just like this sleepy seal the we encountered on the mole 😴 Even though things are hard atm I feel like I am making progress for ME, not just to keep other people happy. It gives me hope that I can recover and do the things that I want to do in the future 🦋 #inpatientrecovery #cptsdrecovery #recoverywins #cptsd #ptsd #realrecovery #progress #depressionrecovery #selfharmrecovery #depression #selfharm
It is nice to get out of the ward for the day after a long hard week of therapy... I feel just like this sleepy seal the we encountered on the mole 😴 Even though things are hard atm I feel like I am making progress for ME, not just to keep other people happy. It gives me hope that I can recover and do the things that I want to do in the future 🦋 #inpatientrecovery  #cptsdrecovery  #recoverywins  #cptsd  #ptsd  #realrecovery  #progress  #depressionrecovery  #selfharmrecovery  #depression  #selfharm 
Start with one step! With one step, one change, once a day, you can transform your life! Mental Health challenges mean we conquer mountains strategically. Yes! We conquer mountains! #liveextraordinary #authenticliving #mentalhealthlifecoach #anxiety #depression #ptsd #cptsd #epilepsy #aspergers #mindfulness #womeninspiringwomen #soulcare #menshealth #soul #soullife thanks to @swissglobalexplorer for the gorgeous photo
° Shame °

When they shame you
Remember that is a burden you were never obligated to carry.
When their words leave you feeling dirty
Let the water wash them away
Come out cleansed and unchanged.
Love yourself fiercely
And throw that shame in the trash. 🖤
° Shame ° When they shame you Remember that is a burden you were never obligated to carry. When their words leave you feeling dirty Let the water wash them away Come out cleansed and unchanged. Love yourself fiercely And throw that shame in the trash. 🖤
once more for the folks in the back 😂 
Day 30 of #100HappyDaysExperiment! 
Things that made me happy today: getting O to lay back down for a bit after a 545am wakeup and a night of many wakeups; pumpkin oatmeal in the instant pot; snuggling with Eli; Eli helping me get the kids ready and off so I could get to work; time to run and grab a snack which the lady at the shop gave me for free!; having my fullest week of clients of my career and feeling so grateful and happy for a full practice; getting to hear about O’s day at the beach with Gordon and “Sevastian”; finally convincing him it is not a good idea to hold his poo in; the wacky three year old stories; reading books and laughing and tickling each other; face timing with my sister and niece and nephew; Eli coming home early to take O camping; O’s happiness and giant hugs when he got home; not having to rush through my workout at the gym; how much I love my gym @basecampsm and how friendly everyone is there; the sunset on my walk home; a long, wonderful conversation with Justin and how lucky I am to have him in my life; getting all my notes for the week done and having time to do it peacefully; the cool fall evening breeze; hearing about Stelly’s day; a hot bath and an early bedtime.
once more for the folks in the back 😂 Day 30 of #100HappyDaysExperiment ! Things that made me happy today: getting O to lay back down for a bit after a 545am wakeup and a night of many wakeups; pumpkin oatmeal in the instant pot; snuggling with Eli; Eli helping me get the kids ready and off so I could get to work; time to run and grab a snack which the lady at the shop gave me for free!; having my fullest week of clients of my career and feeling so grateful and happy for a full practice; getting to hear about O’s day at the beach with Gordon and “Sevastian”; finally convincing him it is not a good idea to hold his poo in; the wacky three year old stories; reading books and laughing and tickling each other; face timing with my sister and niece and nephew; Eli coming home early to take O camping; O’s happiness and giant hugs when he got home; not having to rush through my workout at the gym; how much I love my gym @basecampsm and how friendly everyone is there; the sunset on my walk home; a long, wonderful conversation with Justin and how lucky I am to have him in my life; getting all my notes for the week done and having time to do it peacefully; the cool fall evening breeze; hearing about Stelly’s day; a hot bath and an early bedtime.
Studying in the forest this morning 🌿 I'm not really having the best day, I can't get out of this downswing I've been in since last night and I think I need 14 Valium and a good nap.
Studying in the forest this morning 🌿 I'm not really having the best day, I can't get out of this downswing I've been in since last night and I think I need 14 Valium and a good nap.
"I can never get out of here, I don't wanna just float in fear, a dead astronaut in space." - Disassociative, Marilyn Manson 👽 // at my core, I am a gently happy and cautiously optimistic person. my heart is raw, hurt by the ways of the world, but remains full of love, and my skin is scarred and hypersensitive to outsiders now, but still soft. my mind is dislocating outside of my body like a yolk oozing from a broken shell, only encompassed by the white - I don't know where it goes when I'm not with it. my friendships are fractured by my appearance of apathy and casual indifference - but from the inside it feels more like trying to speak underwater and reach out from across a chasm, and trying to articulate the reason why just passes the burden to the people who don't need any more to suffer. my family don't have the mental or social equipment to keep up with this affliction either. they are not specialists. they are tired and still trying. I'm losing. I have too much interest in the universe to leave - this is not a letter, or a note. just documentation. hopefully one day I can come back, with my mind firmly soldered back into my body, and read this like "look how far I've improved since October '17"! but for now, this is the most scrambled across the planes of existence I've ever found mysel(ves). #breerambles #bipolardisorder #bipd #bipolar1 #ptsd #cptsd
"I can never get out of here, I don't wanna just float in fear, a dead astronaut in space." - Disassociative, Marilyn Manson 👽 // at my core, I am a gently happy and cautiously optimistic person. my heart is raw, hurt by the ways of the world, but remains full of love, and my skin is scarred and hypersensitive to outsiders now, but still soft. my mind is dislocating outside of my body like a yolk oozing from a broken shell, only encompassed by the white - I don't know where it goes when I'm not with it. my friendships are fractured by my appearance of apathy and casual indifference - but from the inside it feels more like trying to speak underwater and reach out from across a chasm, and trying to articulate the reason why just passes the burden to the people who don't need any more to suffer. my family don't have the mental or social equipment to keep up with this affliction either. they are not specialists. they are tired and still trying. I'm losing. I have too much interest in the universe to leave - this is not a letter, or a note. just documentation. hopefully one day I can come back, with my mind firmly soldered back into my body, and read this like "look how far I've improved since October '17"! but for now, this is the most scrambled across the planes of existence I've ever found mysel(ves). #breerambles  #bipolardisorder  #bipd  #bipolar1  #ptsd  #cptsd