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Narcissists are infamous for deliberately spoiling the holidays because they cannot bear to see others experience the joy, love and excitement that they are incapable of.
At this time of year these toxic types may have numerous social gatherings to attend and therefore leverage for potential baiting opportunities.
If you're still in contact, disengage (gray rock) as much as possible whilst at the same event as a narcissist, don't forget you can also back out of going with zero guilt.
Those of you who are no contact, keep doing what you're doing! 
IG: @dont_gaslight_me_bruh
Narcissists are infamous for deliberately spoiling the holidays because they cannot bear to see others experience the joy, love and excitement that they are incapable of. At this time of year these toxic types may have numerous social gatherings to attend and therefore leverage for potential baiting opportunities. If you're still in contact, disengage (gray rock) as much as possible whilst at the same event as a narcissist, don't forget you can also back out of going with zero guilt. Those of you who are no contact, keep doing what you're doing! IG: @dont_gaslight_me_bruh
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Recovery is:
Quality time with boyfriend to kick off your first full week of winter break.😄
Energy for an afternoon of Christmas shopping, i.e. 4 hours of speed walking, dodging shoppers, carrying bags, holding doors, browsing racks, and climbing stairs. 
Stopping for spontaneous soba noodles and before digging in, making boyfriend take cute pictures of you so you have something to post to IG. 😊
Arguing with boyfriend in Old Navy about whether your dad would prefer a classic black sweater (your pick) or a gray one that looks like something worn on the set of Star Wars (guess whose pick)...
Meticulously combing the men’s department of Macy’s in search of an athletic jacket that meets all of boyfriend’s predetermined criteria. Alternately rolling your eyes at his *very* particular, high standards for his clothing, and reminding yourself that such quirks are one of the reasons you adore him. 
Laughing as the two of you share McDonald’s fries dipped in a vanilla ice cream cone as a post-shopping snack. Inevitably exchanging dirty jokes. 😅
Recovery is finally feeling a semblance of “normal”, in that this year, today, you are able to participate in holiday traditions like everybody else. Recovery is caring enough for yourself that you can fully engage with loved ones; recovery is making memories, looking forward to life. And when you want to kill yourself, as you will sooner or later (welcome to the mentally ill world of living with chronic suicidality 😒), looking back on these happy times you’ve documented. Telling yourself, yes, these were real. As much as you believed the pain would not relent. And you need to stay, because you have a lifetime more of amazing experiences, joyful moments, and milestones ahead of you. ✨🌻
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📸: @onkar_nerurkar 😘
Lace crop top: @aerie 🕊
Recovery is: Quality time with boyfriend to kick off your first full week of winter break.😄 Energy for an afternoon of Christmas shopping, i.e. 4 hours of speed walking, dodging shoppers, carrying bags, holding doors, browsing racks, and climbing stairs. Stopping for spontaneous soba noodles and before digging in, making boyfriend take cute pictures of you so you have something to post to IG. 😊 Arguing with boyfriend in Old Navy about whether your dad would prefer a classic black sweater (your pick) or a gray one that looks like something worn on the set of Star Wars (guess whose pick)... Meticulously combing the men’s department of Macy’s in search of an athletic jacket that meets all of boyfriend’s predetermined criteria. Alternately rolling your eyes at his *very* particular, high standards for his clothing, and reminding yourself that such quirks are one of the reasons you adore him. Laughing as the two of you share McDonald’s fries dipped in a vanilla ice cream cone as a post-shopping snack. Inevitably exchanging dirty jokes. 😅 Recovery is finally feeling a semblance of “normal”, in that this year, today, you are able to participate in holiday traditions like everybody else. Recovery is caring enough for yourself that you can fully engage with loved ones; recovery is making memories, looking forward to life. And when you want to kill yourself, as you will sooner or later (welcome to the mentally ill world of living with chronic suicidality 😒), looking back on these happy times you’ve documented. Telling yourself, yes, these were real. As much as you believed the pain would not relent. And you need to stay, because you have a lifetime more of amazing experiences, joyful moments, and milestones ahead of you. ✨🌻 _ _ 📸: @onkar_nerurkar 😘 Lace crop top: @aerie 🕊
Another beaut day on the #goldcoast but unfortunately I’ve cut my trip short. 
Felt overwhelmed and I don’t like hurting anyone so I went home to get some holiday from my holiday. Does anyone get that? They need a recovery period when they return from a trip? I’m knackered and was getting harder and harder to be okay when I’m not. 
I was genuinely happy to be with my family on the coast and I was having a lot of fun. No smiles were needed to be forced or faked but I there was a large amount of the time I was cranky and crying over nothing and I didn’t feel safe 30 stories up so I felt it better I leave. 
It’s okay though. I’m going to get an early night and continue to power through the remaining week. 
Remembering, it’s okay not to be okay. .
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#home#goodbye#goldcoast#zarful#mentalhealthawareness#mentalhealthrecovery#anorexiarecovery#bulimiarecovery#ednos#depression#anxiety#recoveringaussies#weightgainjourney#ptsd#cptsd#smiling
Another beaut day on the #goldcoast  but unfortunately I’ve cut my trip short. Felt overwhelmed and I don’t like hurting anyone so I went home to get some holiday from my holiday. Does anyone get that? They need a recovery period when they return from a trip? I’m knackered and was getting harder and harder to be okay when I’m not. I was genuinely happy to be with my family on the coast and I was having a lot of fun. No smiles were needed to be forced or faked but I there was a large amount of the time I was cranky and crying over nothing and I didn’t feel safe 30 stories up so I felt it better I leave. It’s okay though. I’m going to get an early night and continue to power through the remaining week. Remembering, it’s okay not to be okay. . . . #home #goodbye #goldcoast #zarful #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ednos #depression #anxiety #recoveringaussies #weightgainjourney #ptsd #cptsd #smiling 
If you interacted with me today you probably didn’t notice but I was 100% numb. The only thing I felt was body flashbacks. I had to dig real deep to fight the vision of driving my car into the guard rail in my mind. 🔁 My co-worker asked me what I did for a work out and I replied WE deadlifted, WE did some cleans then WE boxed. She was like who is WE? You were alone the whole time! I got so freaked out. I posted it a while back but to loosely quote my favorite book Love Warrior❤️the author says “when someone who is not fine says ‘I’m fine’ its because her inner self told her outter self to say the words “I’m fine” sometimes she will slip up and say “We’re fine” people will think she is talking about her and her people but she is talking about her socially acceptable self and her hurt self.  Pain splits us into two so we have someone to walk & sit with when everyone else leaves” I did that today. I just got goosebumps.😳
If you interacted with me today you probably didn’t notice but I was 100% numb. The only thing I felt was body flashbacks. I had to dig real deep to fight the vision of driving my car into the guard rail in my mind. 🔁 My co-worker asked me what I did for a work out and I replied WE deadlifted, WE did some cleans then WE boxed. She was like who is WE? You were alone the whole time! I got so freaked out. I posted it a while back but to loosely quote my favorite book Love Warrior❤️the author says “when someone who is not fine says ‘I’m fine’ its because her inner self told her outter self to say the words “I’m fine” sometimes she will slip up and say “We’re fine” people will think she is talking about her and her people but she is talking about her socially acceptable self and her hurt self.  Pain splits us into two so we have someone to walk & sit with when everyone else leaves” I did that today. I just got goosebumps.😳
TRAUMA FACT TUESDAY - I like this cup over flowing metaphor as a way for me to visualize how complex trauma plays out in our lives. #cptsd #complextrauma #traumafact #traumafacttuesday
I am thankful that kindness is around me everywhere I look. I am thankful there is joy in so many moments surrounding the difficult ones. I am thankful that is encouragement in so many people standing beside me. Recovery is not easy, but there is beauty to be discovered along this difficult path, that will make my life richer, and moment by moment, with strength and peace, I continue on 🏥
I am thankful that kindness is around me everywhere I look. I am thankful there is joy in so many moments surrounding the difficult ones. I am thankful that is encouragement in so many people standing beside me. Recovery is not easy, but there is beauty to be discovered along this difficult path, that will make my life richer, and moment by moment, with strength and peace, I continue on 🏥
This is a difficult time of year for a great many of us, and the narcissists are out in full force with 'holiday hoovers' designed to pull at your heart strings and induce nostalgia. 
Remember, they haven't changed no matter what BS they may tell you so please be prepared to keep your guard up and TOTALLY IGNORE any hoover attempts no matter how lonely you feel. 
Any promises of change, or declarations of undying love are just a ruse, and mean your abuser is running their game on you once again.

Let them get their supply from somewhere else this holiday so you can have the peace and quiet you deserve! 
IG: @dont_gaslight_me_bruh
This is a difficult time of year for a great many of us, and the narcissists are out in full force with 'holiday hoovers' designed to pull at your heart strings and induce nostalgia. Remember, they haven't changed no matter what BS they may tell you so please be prepared to keep your guard up and TOTALLY IGNORE any hoover attempts no matter how lonely you feel. Any promises of change, or declarations of undying love are just a ruse, and mean your abuser is running their game on you once again. Let them get their supply from somewhere else this holiday so you can have the peace and quiet you deserve! IG: @dont_gaslight_me_bruh
Self-Care December Days 14-15. Do at least 10 minutes of walking meditation for the next two days. Can be done outdoors - or at home.
Self-Care December Days 14-15. Do at least 10 minutes of walking meditation for the next two days. Can be done outdoors - or at home.
I've been struggling today. Guilt really wants to creep back into my mind, and it sort of did. I felt guilty for working instead of eating lunch with my daughter. I felt guilty for not picking up my son from the bus stop, again, because I was working. I felt guilty for taking a break from work to make art. I feel guilty for not saying more kind words to my husband. I have wonderful thoughts about him, but don't always say them aloud. I feel guilty for breaking the promise I made to myself about getting fresh air every day. I feel guilty for not going to bed earlier. I feel guilty for forgetting to donate items to the preschool holiday bazaar (I made up for it by donating money) 😐
Intellectually, I know that the things I listed are not wrong or bad. Yet sometimes my trauma voice and injured spirit speak louder than my intellectual voice. 😐
Overall I'm growing. I will accept that guilt and other negative forces exist. Their existence in my life doesn't mean I'm not growing. I can flourish despite them. 🕉🕉
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#intuitiveart #intuitiveartist #arttherapy #artheals #creativityforlife #creativelifehappylife #artprocess #artflow #guiltyconscience #guiltfree #imonlyhuman #growthmindset #keepgrowing #selfreflection #abusesurvivor #rapesurvivor #cptsd #depressionawareness #anxietyawareness #artforhealing #doitfortheprocess #onebreathatatime
I've been struggling today. Guilt really wants to creep back into my mind, and it sort of did. I felt guilty for working instead of eating lunch with my daughter. I felt guilty for not picking up my son from the bus stop, again, because I was working. I felt guilty for taking a break from work to make art. I feel guilty for not saying more kind words to my husband. I have wonderful thoughts about him, but don't always say them aloud. I feel guilty for breaking the promise I made to myself about getting fresh air every day. I feel guilty for not going to bed earlier. I feel guilty for forgetting to donate items to the preschool holiday bazaar (I made up for it by donating money) 😐 Intellectually, I know that the things I listed are not wrong or bad. Yet sometimes my trauma voice and injured spirit speak louder than my intellectual voice. 😐 Overall I'm growing. I will accept that guilt and other negative forces exist. Their existence in my life doesn't mean I'm not growing. I can flourish despite them. 🕉🕉 . #intuitiveart  #intuitiveartist  #arttherapy  #artheals  #creativityforlife  #creativelifehappylife  #artprocess  #artflow  #guiltyconscience  #guiltfree  #imonlyhuman  #growthmindset  #keepgrowing  #selfreflection  #abusesurvivor  #rapesurvivor  #cptsd  #depressionawareness  #anxietyawareness  #artforhealing  #doitfortheprocess  #onebreathatatime 
Sorry Jack I said John @jack.plahuta this is for Josh. @megatokebyyets #megatokexl #420alltheway #ptsd #cptsd @dabchamps #canadiandabbingranny #dabchamps  #majicksmarvelousmedicine #copd #peaceloveandbrightblessings #shatterfairy#staymedicated @viking.extracts #chemdawg#yabadabadoozie#staypositive #staylifted #staylit #iwillmarrymary
Tonight sucks. We are switching between us so much and I am terrified of blackouts. We are properly drinking again and it has to stop. We have to be sober. Maddie is kicking off and I'm drunk so I really don't care what she does but I (Renee) does. 'it's too hard' I want to believe that it's a choice. I refuse to give up, to give in. Renee is fire 🔥 but she is hiding #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativedisorder #depression #ptsd #cptsd #survivor #fighting #mentalhealth #warrior #depression #alcoholic #addiction #survivor #soberlife #soberIet #help #hope #eatingdisorder #anorexia #bulimia #fire #nikitagill
Tonight sucks. We are switching between us so much and I am terrified of blackouts. We are properly drinking again and it has to stop. We have to be sober. Maddie is kicking off and I'm drunk so I really don't care what she does but I (Renee) does. 'it's too hard' I want to believe that it's a choice. I refuse to give up, to give in. Renee is fire 🔥 but she is hiding #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #dissociativedisorder  #depression  #ptsd  #cptsd  #survivor  #fighting  #mentalhealth  #warrior  #depression  #alcoholic  #addiction  #survivor  #soberlife  #soberIet  #help  #hope  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #bulimia  #fire  #nikitagill 
To the point with a post by @whiteboardlessons today. You’ve got to make yourself and your self care a priority so as you can keep up those values actions. 💞 What will you do to replenish your resources today? 
#selfcare #priorities #holidays #anxiety #stress #depression #bipolar #bpdrecovery #edrecovery #cptsd #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #wellness #wellbeing #psychology #psychologist #psychlife
What is Trauma?

PTSD Video Minute

You hear people take about PTSD so what does it mean if you are traumatized ? Does everyone get PTSD if they experience a difficult time or a traumatic event?
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Get the book #dealwithit – making scary stuff simple
www.drjohnaking.com
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http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/defining-trauma/

#dealwithitbook #drjohnaking #dealwithit
#PTSDawareness #cptsd #ptsdwife #ptsdsurvivor #stress2strenght #ptsdisadailybattle
What is Trauma?

PTSD Video Minute

You hear people take about PTSD so what does it mean if you are traumatized ? Does everyone get PTSD if they experience a difficult time or a traumatic event?
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Get the book #dealwithit – making scary stuff simple
www.drjohnaking.com
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http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/defining-trauma/

#dealwithit #dealwithitbook #drjohnaking
#cptsd #sexualabuse #ptsdlife #ptsdawarenes #facesofptsd #PTSDTherapy
I was writing affirmations this morning and this is what came to me. I think this is going to be the inspiration for some art. There was a lot of healing in writing this.

#affirmations #selfawareness #selfacceptance #selfcare #selflove #healing #wellness #recovery #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #trauma #cptsd #courage #women #selfharm #hope #trust #peace #growth #personalgrowth #gratitude #love  #personaldevelopment #success #happiness #brave #strong #miracle #iamenough
I was writing affirmations this morning and this is what came to me. I think this is going to be the inspiration for some art. There was a lot of healing in writing this. #affirmations  #selfawareness  #selfacceptance  #selfcare  #selflove  #healing  #wellness  #recovery  #depression  #anxiety  #mentalhealth  #trauma  #cptsd  #courage  #women  #selfharm  #hope  #trust  #peace  #growth  #personalgrowth  #gratitude  #love  #personaldevelopment  #success  #happiness  #brave  #strong  #miracle  #iamenough 
What is Trauma?

PTSD Video Minute

You hear people take about PTSD so what does it mean if you are traumatized ? Does everyone get PTSD if they experience a difficult time or a traumatic event?
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Get the book #dealwithit – making scary stuff simple
www.drjohnaking.com
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http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/defining-trauma/

#dealwithitbook #drjohnaking #dealwithit
#ptsdsupport #ptsdknowledge #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #ptsdrecoveryart #facesofptsd
"Go with your heart, love" ❤// art number 002 #heart #bus #busstation #bigcitylife #cptsd #digitalart  #conceptart #drawing #cs6 #cintiq #wacom
What is Trauma?

PTSD Video Minute

You hear people take about PTSD so what does it mean if you are traumatized ? Does everyone get PTSD if they experience a difficult time or a traumatic event?
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Get the book #dealwithit – making scary stuff simple
www.drjohnaking.com
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http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/defining-trauma/

#dealwithit #dealwithitbook #drjohnaking
#cptsd #complexptsd #ptsdknowledge #stress2strenght #facesofptsd #ptsdrecoveryart
Upper limits are THE WORST ... especially when they’re unconscious.

Especially when they impact your Love relationships 😢❤️ What I used to do was sabotage the F out of relationships if they got too good.

Then I mixed my business in there and if that felt too good I would start (subconsciously) sabotaging my business by RUNNING toward my relationships to create drama there,

Which would impact my business Success ...and on and on it went.

MAMMA MIA, right ???!!?? I’m so grateful for all the mindset coaches out there who helped me understand, work through and dissipate these patterns so I could live a different life.

A life that includes helping people work through these things myself now 💕

Do you smile when you think of the upper limit challenges you’ve overcome too?

XO Success Coach Gina
Upper limits are THE WORST ... especially when they’re unconscious. Especially when they impact your Love relationships 😢❤️ What I used to do was sabotage the F out of relationships if they got too good. Then I mixed my business in there and if that felt too good I would start (subconsciously) sabotaging my business by RUNNING toward my relationships to create drama there, Which would impact my business Success ...and on and on it went. MAMMA MIA, right ???!!?? I’m so grateful for all the mindset coaches out there who helped me understand, work through and dissipate these patterns so I could live a different life. A life that includes helping people work through these things myself now 💕 Do you smile when you think of the upper limit challenges you’ve overcome too? XO Success Coach Gina
PARC drivin me nuts at the moment, get me out of here!
#crazy #ptsd #cptsd #hardwork #healing #notgood #dontfeelbetter #thissux #tryinghard #tryharder #healthy
Day 3 of #30daysofgratitude12 (I was too sick to post yesterday, especially about food!) Potatoes may seem like a ridiculous answer, but I'm a carb addict. You can pry potatoes from my cold dead hands! The reason I'm grateful for it, is that growing up poor you really gain appreciation for something so cheap, yet so diverse!
Day 3 of #30daysofgratitude12  (I was too sick to post yesterday, especially about food!) Potatoes may seem like a ridiculous answer, but I'm a carb addict. You can pry potatoes from my cold dead hands! The reason I'm grateful for it, is that growing up poor you really gain appreciation for something so cheap, yet so diverse!
I am grateful to be grateful - a gift of recovery! 
www.bornenough.com

#PTSD #CPTSD #bornenough #trauma #childhoodtrauma #healing #addiction #recovery #treatment #iamenough #lettinggo #mentalillness #anxiety #depression #notmyfault #courage #gratitude ##solution #power #empowerment
Still hanging by a thread and trying to figure things out to get out of this pot hole I fell into. My therapist gave more suggestions on how to be mindful and redirect from anxiety. This week her suggestions were #sillyputty and a #fidgetspinner . She had a spinner in her desk she let me try out. I rather enjoyed it. I liked the look and feel of it. The grooves from the bearings, the way it looked and sounded while spinning and just a general way to keep my mind off thongs as my attention was on the object and not the anxiety. Today a friend got me a stackable spinner.  It's metal, pink, and green. I love the dual spins. Holding it between my thumb and 2 middle fingers while spinning each side with my index finger.  It has a soft white noise sound to it which I love. I spin each side in opposite directions which give it a kaleidoscope look. Fairly mesmerizing. So far, this is a winner in my book. It was interesting to find out it was designed for adhd and #ptsd #anxiety who ever designed these, my hats off to you, thank you! #cptsd #cptsdawareness #cptsdrecovery #copingtools #copingskills #mindful #redirect #anxietydistractor
Still hanging by a thread and trying to figure things out to get out of this pot hole I fell into. My therapist gave more suggestions on how to be mindful and redirect from anxiety. This week her suggestions were #sillyputty  and a #fidgetspinner  . She had a spinner in her desk she let me try out. I rather enjoyed it. I liked the look and feel of it. The grooves from the bearings, the way it looked and sounded while spinning and just a general way to keep my mind off thongs as my attention was on the object and not the anxiety. Today a friend got me a stackable spinner. It's metal, pink, and green. I love the dual spins. Holding it between my thumb and 2 middle fingers while spinning each side with my index finger. It has a soft white noise sound to it which I love. I spin each side in opposite directions which give it a kaleidoscope look. Fairly mesmerizing. So far, this is a winner in my book. It was interesting to find out it was designed for adhd and #ptsd  #anxiety  who ever designed these, my hats off to you, thank you! #cptsd  #cptsdawareness  #cptsdrecovery  #copingtools  #copingskills  #mindful  #redirect  #anxietydistractor 
I owe a #stopdropandwhatever to @the_sparkling_green_gay and I believe an old one to @rastababe21 🤘 #dabbing some candyland from @oleumlabs_  going to nominate @stonerrants @bakedlikeablond and @minnestonergirl420 enjoy and medicate as you wish!
I owe a #stopdropandwhatever  to @the_sparkling_green_gay and I believe an old one to @rastababe21 🤘 #dabbing  some candyland from @oleumlabs_ going to nominate @stonerrants @bakedlikeablond and @minnestonergirl420 enjoy and medicate as you wish!
Mad Mark when he was still just Angst-Filled Mark😋 this was in '93 (according to the back of the photo 😂) Side note- why does it look like I'm photo bombing my own photo?! #shortpeopleproblems #madmark @madmarkfarms 💚 #friendsinHIGHplaces
Mad Mark when he was still just Angst-Filled Mark😋 this was in '93 (according to the back of the photo 😂) Side note- why does it look like I'm photo bombing my own photo?! #shortpeopleproblems  #madmark  @madmarkfarms 💚 #friendsinHIGHplaces 
In the last month being on all these pills I don’t feel better. I’m finally starting to feel like me again, but my body has changed. I feel it in how my clothes fit. I feel it in how I feel being inside myself. I haven’t had issue with my clothes not fitting well in years. Crazy what one fucking month following “doctors orders” can do. So here’s my belly which has bloated. The blood pressure pills and hypothyroidism cause this. When I said fuck it and did things my way oddly my belly was smaller and I didn’t experience a weight gain. It’s a small thing and I’ll deal if my health really has improved, but I think it my health had improved I’d know. I’d feel it. Which leads me to believe this is the wrong course of action. But alas, I am poor and fat a deadly combination to be sure. I spend a lot of time thinking about how our system is rigged for failure. Really that should be a whole other post, but when have I ever been one for follow rules? Right?! Yeah, fuck that shit. So my Little was dropped by sub par therapists, I found a therapist he loves, but I have to pay cash. My youngest lost his psychiatrist when he lost the sub par therapists. I was referred to a psychiatrist who has a license, sure, he’s also a masochist who enjoys retraumatizing his clients. Setting them up for you guessed, it failure! You know why Temple Grandlin is so successful?! Because she came from privilege. She’s white, born to educated parents of reasonable means. Which isn’t to down play her intelligence, but fuck it all if I don’t look at the brilliance of my boys and see unlimited potential buried under a system determined to lock them away. I know, crazy tangent. Still sadly true. #theundesirables
In the last month being on all these pills I don’t feel better. I’m finally starting to feel like me again, but my body has changed. I feel it in how my clothes fit. I feel it in how I feel being inside myself. I haven’t had issue with my clothes not fitting well in years. Crazy what one fucking month following “doctors orders” can do. So here’s my belly which has bloated. The blood pressure pills and hypothyroidism cause this. When I said fuck it and did things my way oddly my belly was smaller and I didn’t experience a weight gain. It’s a small thing and I’ll deal if my health really has improved, but I think it my health had improved I’d know. I’d feel it. Which leads me to believe this is the wrong course of action. But alas, I am poor and fat a deadly combination to be sure. I spend a lot of time thinking about how our system is rigged for failure. Really that should be a whole other post, but when have I ever been one for follow rules? Right?! Yeah, fuck that shit. So my Little was dropped by sub par therapists, I found a therapist he loves, but I have to pay cash. My youngest lost his psychiatrist when he lost the sub par therapists. I was referred to a psychiatrist who has a license, sure, he’s also a masochist who enjoys retraumatizing his clients. Setting them up for you guessed, it failure! You know why Temple Grandlin is so successful?! Because she came from privilege. She’s white, born to educated parents of reasonable means. Which isn’t to down play her intelligence, but fuck it all if I don’t look at the brilliance of my boys and see unlimited potential buried under a system determined to lock them away. I know, crazy tangent. Still sadly true. #theundesirables 
#itsyourlife Hey My Luvs 😘These are Yesterdays  LIVES So COMMENTING OFF... Please Swipe 5 pages...My Family here gets deeper reason lol My Cptsd Disclaimer🙋Never want to bother people too much lol You gave me enough Luv...I did go on that long drive  lol...One page is an Excerpt from "SOULMATES" This is very deep & bit personal....Will try my best to open up & share more...MY NEXT POST will be "WORDS I WISHED I SAID' Kinda harsh but it's ok...Added Excerpt here..Then my  Relapse Party post soon too lol☺️I posted a pic as a live that day as weird but needed..Been going through lots but it's good..Writing Too❤️When I first joined here I would share 4 lines & Wait for someone to comment "What is this nonsense your posting here" 😅 Wow see from then to long stories long crazy side talks 🐓lol.. That is the true Luv & support from my Family here...Proud of My Angels too...121 of you trusted me & reached out when you were in that bad state...It's all you 💯 Suicide prevention...Some got admitted that day itself....Tearing up as I'm so Proud...Hearts like yours are BEAUTIFUL..You have me for life❤️Keep reaching out ❤️I have been talking to some for months now as it never ends...It's funny it's still hard to accept a compliment...For ex one says you write so well I will be like who what where they at lol Kidding Luvs...Before I would wait for that compliment and once I get it, Would find millions of reasons why it's not true with pie charts and graphs to accompany lol😂Much better but it's good actually as I share ❤️Luv you Tons...You are just Brilliant..Never forget that ...You are a 💎You are not alone I'm here 🙋 Cheering you on Luvs...Lots of Love Lovelies & Keep Slaying 😘❤️"WORDS I WISHED I SAID" next💕

#mentalhealthadvocate #doctor  #depression #depressed #bipolar #cptsd #ptsd #abuse #suicidal #sexualabuse #ptsdawareness  #domesticviolence  #writer #heartbreak #anxietydisorder #schizophrenia  #narcissisticabuse #reallove #cptsdrecovery #writersofinstagram  # #suicideprevention #trauma  #lovepoem  #heartbreak #poem #soulmate #lovepoetry #bingeeatingdisorder  #sexualassault  #iloveyouall. Anupa, just love your insights and writers.  You touch so many people.
#itsyourlife  Hey My Luvs 😘These are Yesterdays LIVES So COMMENTING OFF... Please Swipe 5 pages...My Family here gets deeper reason lol My Cptsd Disclaimer🙋Never want to bother people too much lol You gave me enough Luv...I did go on that long drive lol...One page is an Excerpt from "SOULMATES" This is very deep & bit personal....Will try my best to open up & share more...MY NEXT POST will be "WORDS I WISHED I SAID' Kinda harsh but it's ok...Added Excerpt here..Then my Relapse Party post soon too lol☺️I posted a pic as a live that day as weird but needed..Been going through lots but it's good..Writing Too❤️When I first joined here I would share 4 lines & Wait for someone to comment "What is this nonsense your posting here" 😅 Wow see from then to long stories long crazy side talks 🐓lol.. That is the true Luv & support from my Family here...Proud of My Angels too...121 of you trusted me & reached out when you were in that bad state...It's all you 💯 Suicide prevention...Some got admitted that day itself....Tearing up as I'm so Proud...Hearts like yours are BEAUTIFUL..You have me for life❤️Keep reaching out ❤️I have been talking to some for months now as it never ends...It's funny it's still hard to accept a compliment...For ex one says you write so well I will be like who what where they at lol Kidding Luvs...Before I would wait for that compliment and once I get it, Would find millions of reasons why it's not true with pie charts and graphs to accompany lol😂Much better but it's good actually as I share ❤️Luv you Tons...You are just Brilliant..Never forget that ...You are a 💎You are not alone I'm here 🙋 Cheering you on Luvs...Lots of Love Lovelies & Keep Slaying 😘❤️"WORDS I WISHED I SAID" next💕 #mentalhealthadvocate  #doctor  #depression  #depressed  #bipolar  #cptsd  #ptsd  #abuse  #suicidal  #sexualabuse  #ptsdawareness  #domesticviolence  #writer  #heartbreak  #anxietydisorder  #schizophrenia  #narcissisticabuse  #reallove  #cptsdrecovery  #writersofinstagram  # #suicideprevention  #trauma  #lovepoem  #heartbreak  #poem  #soulmate  #lovepoetry  #bingeeatingdisorder  #sexualassault  #iloveyouall . Anupa, just love your insights and writers. You touch so many people.
Instant panic attack relief. I love nature. Remember: You are beloved so be loved. 
#beloved #nature #snow #anxiety #panicattack #ptsd #cptsd #recovery #healing #twloha #nami #mha #grounding #thecoldneverbotheredmeanyway #naturelove
LARRY: Did you get the milk Frank? I can't drink the coffee without the milk

FRANK: What if there are no answers Larry? What if the problem lies within the confinement of the question itself Larry? 
LARRY: Do you think it would be ok to wear my new shirt before Brenda's party on Saturday? I spilt ketchup and I didn't have time to pick up the dry cleaning

FRANK: Sure I got the milk Larry

#frankandlarry #nixon #dontforgetthemilk #cbs #waltercronkite #gaslighting #cptsd #president #resignation #ketchup
LARRY: Did you get the milk Frank? I can't drink the coffee without the milk FRANK: What if there are no answers Larry? What if the problem lies within the confinement of the question itself Larry? LARRY: Do you think it would be ok to wear my new shirt before Brenda's party on Saturday? I spilt ketchup and I didn't have time to pick up the dry cleaning FRANK: Sure I got the milk Larry #frankandlarry  #nixon  #dontforgetthemilk  #cbs  #waltercronkite  #gaslighting  #cptsd  #president  #resignation  #ketchup 
This is a difficult time of year for a great many of us, and the narcissists are out in full force with 'holiday hoovers' designed to pull at your heart strings and induce nostalgia. 
Remember, they haven't changed no matter what BS they may tell you so please be prepared to keep your guard up and TOTALLY IGNORE any hoover attempts no matter how lonely you feel. 
Any promises of change, or declarations of undying love are just a ruse, and mean your abuser is running their game on you once again.

Let them get their supply from somewhere else this holiday so you can have the peace and quiet you deserve! 
IG: @dont_gaslight_me_bruh
This is a difficult time of year for a great many of us, and the narcissists are out in full force with 'holiday hoovers' designed to pull at your heart strings and induce nostalgia. Remember, they haven't changed no matter what BS they may tell you so please be prepared to keep your guard up and TOTALLY IGNORE any hoover attempts no matter how lonely you feel. Any promises of change, or declarations of undying love are just a ruse, and mean your abuser is running their game on you once again. Let them get their supply from somewhere else this holiday so you can have the peace and quiet you deserve! IG: @dont_gaslight_me_bruh
Firstly, never underestimate the power of your creativity and your ability to resolve an issue even if it’s not your skill set! Yes I flipping did it, I solved a tech issue no tech people could resolve 😂💥💁🏽✨ Second my Heart to Heart interview Series is back!! Check out my Heart to Heart with Healthy Relationship Coach Catherine Dietz - I love this lady!! She truly walks her talk. I love her energy and the fact that we are totally in sync with our posts 🙏🏼
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Topics covered: *Understanding why a relationship that started out so great can take a turn for the worse *3 simple steps to start moving in a more empowered direction when struggling with the question of 'should I stay or should I go?' *Understanding why our emotions play an essential role in guiding us in the right direction *Understanding why it's so important to learn all that you can from the pain of this experience so you don't continue these patterns in future relationships *How to reclaim your power and stop the spin cycle of frustration *Catherine's Heart Message •

I hope you enjoyed the interview. •

Go to Melany Oliver on YouTube. Link in my bio 👆🏼Or 👇🏼
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcJsnmR-5G4

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Firstly, never underestimate the power of your creativity and your ability to resolve an issue even if it’s not your skill set! Yes I flipping did it, I solved a tech issue no tech people could resolve 😂💥💁🏽✨ Second my Heart to Heart interview Series is back!! Check out my Heart to Heart with Healthy Relationship Coach Catherine Dietz - I love this lady!! She truly walks her talk. I love her energy and the fact that we are totally in sync with our posts 🙏🏼 • Topics covered: *Understanding why a relationship that started out so great can take a turn for the worse *3 simple steps to start moving in a more empowered direction when struggling with the question of 'should I stay or should I go?' *Understanding why our emotions play an essential role in guiding us in the right direction *Understanding why it's so important to learn all that you can from the pain of this experience so you don't continue these patterns in future relationships *How to reclaim your power and stop the spin cycle of frustration *Catherine's Heart Message • I hope you enjoyed the interview. • Go to Melany Oliver on YouTube. Link in my bio 👆🏼Or 👇🏼 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcJsnmR-5G4 #interviewseries  #hearttoheart  . . . . . . #psychology  #psychotherapy  #selfimprovement  #knowledgeispower  #lifelessons  #personaldevelopment  #mindfulness  #selfimprovement  #healingjourney  #emotionalintelligence  #ptsd  #mentalhealth  #cptsd  #personalgrowth  #innerchildhealing  #traumahealing  #conscious  #narcissists  #holistichealing  #mindbodyspirit  #abuse  #trauma  #toxicpeople  #projection  #shadowwork  #blameshifting  #truth  #truthseeker 
Maybe you grew up believing you needed to earn love. Or maybe perfection meant safety, or a semblance of it. Maybe, you thought life has to fit in a tight box or it doesn’t count.
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Here’s what I want you to know: You don’t have to keep living that story.
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You are not married to it.
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#becomingthebeloved #beloved #becomingwhole #mentalhealth #rewrite #wholeness #abide #bestill
Maybe you grew up believing you needed to earn love. Or maybe perfection meant safety, or a semblance of it. Maybe, you thought life has to fit in a tight box or it doesn’t count. . Here’s what I want you to know: You don’t have to keep living that story. . You are not married to it. . You can re-write the script you were given. So breathe. Start with the first moment. See what happens when you give yourself permission to be imperfect, but loveable. . . . . #becomingthebeloved  #beloved  #becomingwhole  #mentalhealth  #rewrite  #wholeness  #abide  #bestill 
#onedayatatime 👣
Recently I’ve wondered if I am doing enough or being obedient enough because once again, I find myself in a season of waiting.  In spite of my faith, I still struggle with self blame thinking that I’ve done not enough or not the right things when what I hope for still has not manifested. Which is why I don’t think it’s a coincidence that I came across this today.  I find it easy to imagine figures in the Bible as almost perfect, Holy people.  However, nothing could be further from the truth.  Just look at the histories of some of God’s most prominent people.  Perhaps the greatest comfort we can find is simply being still and knowing God as He reminds us we don’t have to be perfect to be His chosen. May we all feel worthy and loved today! #theemptiedheart #worthy #worthyandloved #youareworthy #imperfect #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #recovery #recoverysupport #recoveryispossible #recoveryencouragement #jacob #naomi #rest #restwithgod #amigoodenough #amidoingenough #trustgod #trustingod #patience #patienceisavirtue #thankgod
Recently I’ve wondered if I am doing enough or being obedient enough because once again, I find myself in a season of waiting. In spite of my faith, I still struggle with self blame thinking that I’ve done not enough or not the right things when what I hope for still has not manifested. Which is why I don’t think it’s a coincidence that I came across this today. I find it easy to imagine figures in the Bible as almost perfect, Holy people. However, nothing could be further from the truth. Just look at the histories of some of God’s most prominent people. Perhaps the greatest comfort we can find is simply being still and knowing God as He reminds us we don’t have to be perfect to be His chosen. May we all feel worthy and loved today! #theemptiedheart  #worthy  #worthyandloved  #youareworthy  #imperfect  #cptsd  #cptsdrecovery  #recovery  #recoverysupport  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryencouragement  #jacob  #naomi  #rest  #restwithgod  #amigoodenough  #amidoingenough  #trustgod  #trustingod  #patience  #patienceisavirtue  #thankgod 
Self-Care December Day 13 Don’t know when I last bought something extravagant for myself. To care for myself today I went shopping for me!! The aim was to buy something for myself which I could wear everyday and would remind me of my journey. This piece of silver, with its dents, grooves and patterns does just that.
Self-Care December Day 13 Don’t know when I last bought something extravagant for myself. To care for myself today I went shopping for me!! The aim was to buy something for myself which I could wear everyday and would remind me of my journey. This piece of silver, with its dents, grooves and patterns does just that.
#truth I haven't taken meds since I got pregnant a little over six years ago. I had been misdiagnosed and improperly medicated and had been on so many different medicines from the time I was 14 until I got pregnant a month after I turned 22. Now I'm 28 and the therapist I just started seeing a few months ago says my disassociation is too severe and beyond my control and gave me the ultimatum if I wanted to keep seeing her I had to see a psychiatrist. I thought I had months to mentally prep but she called my doctor who made an emergency referral and lucky me today is the day. So naturally I need to leave in 5 minutes so I'm drinking a cup of coffee like the idiot I am when I haven't had caffeine in weeks so I'm sure to be extra anxious. Why? Because there's snow outside and I really like coffee and snow. I really need to work on how effective I am. If I could drink alcohol, I would be doing that...Okay so maybe my therapist had a point. I'll update after. Send me strong and calming thoughts. I'm going to try to breathe and pour out the rest of my coffee (I only had a few sips). #anxiety #anxietyhumor #therapist #therapy #medication #psychiatrist #ptsd #cptsd #socialanxiety #meme #anxiousaf
#truth  I haven't taken meds since I got pregnant a little over six years ago. I had been misdiagnosed and improperly medicated and had been on so many different medicines from the time I was 14 until I got pregnant a month after I turned 22. Now I'm 28 and the therapist I just started seeing a few months ago says my disassociation is too severe and beyond my control and gave me the ultimatum if I wanted to keep seeing her I had to see a psychiatrist. I thought I had months to mentally prep but she called my doctor who made an emergency referral and lucky me today is the day. So naturally I need to leave in 5 minutes so I'm drinking a cup of coffee like the idiot I am when I haven't had caffeine in weeks so I'm sure to be extra anxious. Why? Because there's snow outside and I really like coffee and snow. I really need to work on how effective I am. If I could drink alcohol, I would be doing that...Okay so maybe my therapist had a point. I'll update after. Send me strong and calming thoughts. I'm going to try to breathe and pour out the rest of my coffee (I only had a few sips). #anxiety  #anxietyhumor  #therapist  #therapy  #medication  #psychiatrist  #ptsd  #cptsd  #socialanxiety  #meme  #anxiousaf 
There is always a healthier, kinder option for your food and every other part of your day. Jmx
#veganlife #vegansofig #vegan #veganfood #food #salad #lifestyle #health #healthy #strong #dinner #carpediem #vegetarian #energy #instapic #instagood #singapore #motivation #inspiration #cptsd #hsp #delicious #wednesdaywisdom
Those mountains were meant for you to climb and conquer, not to carry on your back weighing you down forever. 👌
Those mountains were meant for you to climb and conquer, not to carry on your back weighing you down forever. 👌
Looking for #Suggestions of things similar to #TheGenderGames by @junodawson and about the social construct of #Gender to read. Thanks in advance 🙆
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#AspergerSyndrome #Asthma #BowelAdhesions #CPTSD #CerebralPalsy #CervicalSpondylosis #Costochondritis #Depression #Dysmotility #Fibromyalgia #Genderless #HiatusHernia #Hyperlordosis #Hypermobility #Migraines #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #Oesophagitis  #RaynaudsSyndrome #Scoliosis #Scottish #StomachPolyps #Tachycardia
Looking for #Suggestions  of things similar to #TheGenderGames  by @junodawson and about the social construct of #Gender  to read. Thanks in advance 🙆 💜📚💜📚💜📚💜📚 #AspergerSyndrome  #Asthma  #BowelAdhesions  #CPTSD  #CerebralPalsy  #CervicalSpondylosis  #Costochondritis  #Depression  #Dysmotility  #Fibromyalgia  #Genderless  #HiatusHernia  #Hyperlordosis  #Hypermobility  #Migraines  #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis  #Oesophagitis   #RaynaudsSyndrome  #Scoliosis  #Scottish  #StomachPolyps  #Tachycardia 
Yesterday was bad, but I’m hoping today will be a lot better. Sleep is the thing that helps me the most. If I can fall asleep before my thoughts start racing, then when I wake up, I’ll feel a lot better. It’s super cold today where I live and that makes me sad, I don’t like the cold☹️ -
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Yesterday was bad, but I’m hoping today will be a lot better. Sleep is the thing that helps me the most. If I can fall asleep before my thoughts start racing, then when I wake up, I’ll feel a lot better. It’s super cold today where I live and that makes me sad, I don’t like the cold☹️ - - - #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxious  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #selfmutilation  #selfdestruction  #cuttingmyself  #selfharn  #selfhate  #recovery  #ptsd  #dissociation  #cptsd 
Ordagrant orden som kom var:

13/12 - 2017 " Lyft din blick, håll ditt huvud högt och se Mig.
Se ljuset.
Jag är ljuset.
Ljuset är starkare än mörkret.
Glöm inte detta;
"Att när natten är som mörkast är gryningen allra närmast".
Håll blicken fäst på Mig, 
och Jag ska lysa upp din väg, 
så att du ser var du går.
Men håll ögonen öppna för alla hinder,
på vägen framför dina fötter, 
de är inte ditlagda av Mig, 
men när du snavar hjälper Jag dig upp , 
så att du inte faller.
Se mig.
Hör mig.
Följ Mitt ljus.

Amen "Lift your eyes, 
hold your head high and see Me.
See the light.
I am the light.
The light is stronger than the darkness.
Do not forget this;
"When the night is at darkest, 
the dawn is at closest".
Keep your eyes attached to Me, 
and I'll light your way,
so you can see  your path.
Keep your eyes on all the obstacles,
on the way in front of your feet,
they are not put there by Me,
but when you stumble,  I'll help you up,
so you don't fall.
See me.
Hear me.
Follow My Light.

Amen

#words #prayer #bible #christian #jesuschrist #jesus #godforgiveus #godforgiveme #god #worship #mylife #itsalifestyle #pray #belive #belief #survivor #letshelpeachother #ptsdawareness #cptsd #ptsd
Ordagrant orden som kom var: 13/12 - 2017 " Lyft din blick, håll ditt huvud högt och se Mig. Se ljuset. Jag är ljuset. Ljuset är starkare än mörkret. Glöm inte detta; "Att när natten är som mörkast är gryningen allra närmast". Håll blicken fäst på Mig, och Jag ska lysa upp din väg, så att du ser var du går. Men håll ögonen öppna för alla hinder, på vägen framför dina fötter, de är inte ditlagda av Mig, men när du snavar hjälper Jag dig upp , så att du inte faller. Se mig. Hör mig. Följ Mitt ljus. Amen "Lift your eyes, hold your head high and see Me. See the light. I am the light. The light is stronger than the darkness. Do not forget this; "When the night is at darkest, the dawn is at closest". Keep your eyes attached to Me, and I'll light your way, so you can see  your path. Keep your eyes on all the obstacles, on the way in front of your feet, they are not put there by Me, but when you stumble,  I'll help you up, so you don't fall. See me. Hear me. Follow My Light. Amen #words  #prayer  #bible  #christian  #jesuschrist  #jesus  #godforgiveus  #godforgiveme  #god  #worship  #mylife  #itsalifestyle  #pray  #belive  #belief  #survivor  #letshelpeachother  #ptsdawareness  #cptsd  #ptsd 
Dealing with complex PTSD for this new body of work. This one is titled 4am when the demons come. Work in progress. Pencil on paper. #cptsd #mentalhealthawareness #stopdomesticviolence #mentalhealthmatters #ptsd #Artoninstagram #artoftheday #Generalpencils #Artofinstagram #pencils #pencildrawing #Art #Portrait #pencilportrait #Workinprogress #Artist #newartprojects #artistsoninstagram #illustration #contemporaryart #cretacolor #fineart #drawing  #Face #drawingoftheday #artwork
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Beautiful. Nur eine kleine Erinnerung: An das Schöne an und vor allem _in_ einem selbst. An das Schöne in dieser Welt.

Weil ich es selbst gerade brauche und für jeden, der es auch gerade braucht. .
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. Beautiful. Nur eine kleine Erinnerung: An das Schöne an und vor allem _in_ einem selbst. An das Schöne in dieser Welt. Weil ich es selbst gerade brauche und für jeden, der es auch gerade braucht. . . . . #mentalhealth  #warrior  #survivor  #lifeaftertrauma  #endthestigma  #suicidal  #spreadawareness  #trauma  #traumatherapy  #recovery  #cptsd  #cptsdrecovery  #progress  #selflove  #selfcare  #worthy  #selfharm  #beautiful  #bodypositive  #mindset  #selbstliebe  #selbstfürsorge  #achtsamkeit  #hoffnung  #selbstverletzung  #therapie  #inspiration  #schön  #leben  #soulfood 
If humans thought before they judged; it would be so much easier on people with invisible disabilities. 💜

Not all disabilities, illnesses etc are visible. You never know what someone's going through. So don't pass judgement until you do. 💜

Lately I'm seeing lots of posts - someone stuck a sign to my car saying I was fat, lazy and shouldn't be using the disabled bay or have a disabled badge. 
How awful is that? The lady had fibromyalgia and other illnesses. 💜

More people are being open with their daily struggles with the invisible disability. That's means more awareness and hopefully more understanding and less judgement. 💜sending hugs to all you Spoonies 🤗
If humans thought before they judged; it would be so much easier on people with invisible disabilities. 💜 Not all disabilities, illnesses etc are visible. You never know what someone's going through. So don't pass judgement until you do. 💜 Lately I'm seeing lots of posts - someone stuck a sign to my car saying I was fat, lazy and shouldn't be using the disabled bay or have a disabled badge. How awful is that? The lady had fibromyalgia and other illnesses. 💜 More people are being open with their daily struggles with the invisible disability. That's means more awareness and hopefully more understanding and less judgement. 💜sending hugs to all you Spoonies 🤗
Rare is nothing,
Freak is none,
To the eyes of the great meow.

For we are all
But a great whole.

Both light and shadow,
we bestow.
Nor the one could be
 without the other.
As the pit could not be
without the whole.
We cannot be without the other.

Noneness cannot be without the All.

#mindfulness #cats #cptsd 
#oneness
#mindfulness #cats #catoftheday #meditation #light #shadow #spirituality
After swim selfie. Today was my first swim of the season. I have a while to go yet before I'm back to form but I have my leg a good work out. No handstands in the pool yet but I'll work my way back to that. The swimming will help with my muscles as I did lose definition this year. The leg that was injured is sore but it's the "good" sore. My head continues to get in my way when it comes to the extra physical activity needed but I'm slowly getting there. Im still afraid of tearing the muscle again so I'm being kind while pushing myself to use my leg more. With all the stress on our plate as we try to cull and pack, and find somewhere we can afford to live, I'm already dealing with flashbacks and triggers galore so it's not surprising that my head continues to slow my progress at times. But baby steps and kindness is key if I'm going to come back stronger than ever. I loved the feel of my hair in the water and at least it doesn't get in my way when I'm swimming. #selfieperday #selfieproject2017 #selfieproject #waterbaby #summershere #babysteps #mentalhealthawareness #cptsd #trauma #flashbacks #recovery #healing #theeyeshaveit #gettingfit #poollife #swimming #determined #bedory🐟
After swim selfie. Today was my first swim of the season. I have a while to go yet before I'm back to form but I have my leg a good work out. No handstands in the pool yet but I'll work my way back to that. The swimming will help with my muscles as I did lose definition this year. The leg that was injured is sore but it's the "good" sore. My head continues to get in my way when it comes to the extra physical activity needed but I'm slowly getting there. Im still afraid of tearing the muscle again so I'm being kind while pushing myself to use my leg more. With all the stress on our plate as we try to cull and pack, and find somewhere we can afford to live, I'm already dealing with flashbacks and triggers galore so it's not surprising that my head continues to slow my progress at times. But baby steps and kindness is key if I'm going to come back stronger than ever. I loved the feel of my hair in the water and at least it doesn't get in my way when I'm swimming. #selfieperday  #selfieproject2017  #selfieproject  #waterbaby  #summershere  #babysteps  #mentalhealthawareness  #cptsd  #trauma  #flashbacks  #recovery  #healing  #theeyeshaveit  #gettingfit  #poollife  #swimming  #determined  #bedory 🐟
Gestutzte Eiche

Wie haben sie dich, Baum, verschnitten
Wie stehst du fremd und sonderbar!
Wie hast du hundertmal gelitten,
Bis nichts in dir als Trotz und Wille war!
Ich bin wie du, mit dem verschnittnen,
Gequälten Leben brach ich nicht
Und tauche täglich aus durchlittnen Rohheiten neu die Stirn ins Licht.
Was in mir weich und zart gewesen,
Hat mir die Welt zu Tod gehöhnt,
Doch unzerstörbar ist mein Wesen,
Ich bin zufrieden, bin versöhnt,
Geduldig neue Blätter treib ich,
Aus Ästen hundertmal zerspellt,
Und allem Weh zu Trotze,
Bleib ich verliebt in die verrückte Welt. ~Hermann Hesse, 1919

#gedichte #poem #mood #naturelove #nature #positivity #lovelife #cptsd #traumahealing #childhoodtrauma #nevergiveup
Gestutzte Eiche Wie haben sie dich, Baum, verschnitten Wie stehst du fremd und sonderbar! Wie hast du hundertmal gelitten, Bis nichts in dir als Trotz und Wille war! Ich bin wie du, mit dem verschnittnen, Gequälten Leben brach ich nicht Und tauche täglich aus durchlittnen Rohheiten neu die Stirn ins Licht. Was in mir weich und zart gewesen, Hat mir die Welt zu Tod gehöhnt, Doch unzerstörbar ist mein Wesen, Ich bin zufrieden, bin versöhnt, Geduldig neue Blätter treib ich, Aus Ästen hundertmal zerspellt, Und allem Weh zu Trotze, Bleib ich verliebt in die verrückte Welt. ~Hermann Hesse, 1919 #gedichte  #poem  #mood  #naturelove  #nature  #positivity  #lovelife  #cptsd  #traumahealing  #childhoodtrauma  #nevergiveup 
Lessons of wisdom, deepening of the personality and robust boundaries often come from processing emotions. We take out what we need and let go off what we don't need just like we do when digesting food.
Lessons of wisdom, deepening of the personality and robust boundaries often come from processing emotions. We take out what we need and let go off what we don't need just like we do when digesting food.
Soreeeeeeeeee I haz allllllllllll the pain, cold, rain, walking faster than I'm safely comfortable with because the cold and rain effect my chronic invisible illnesses 😭

I've just finished my smoothie and I'm having a wee cuppa chamomile before I brave the elements again cause I am getting my hair done at @thewitcheshut this morning 😎 if you're ever in Alexandria I highly recommend The Witches Hut btw!

Anyhoo I hope you have a good day! 🙈🙉🙊 #selfie #me #selfienation #queer #enby #nonbinary #bisexual #polyam #health #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthmatters #happiness2others #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthwarrior #cptsd #pd #chronicpain #chronicpainwarrior #chronicpainawarness #autism #spoonie #spoonielife #little #inked #weegie #videogram #awesomevideo #myvideo #video
Soreeeeeeeeee I haz allllllllllll the pain, cold, rain, walking faster than I'm safely comfortable with because the cold and rain effect my chronic invisible illnesses 😭 I've just finished my smoothie and I'm having a wee cuppa chamomile before I brave the elements again cause I am getting my hair done at @thewitcheshut this morning 😎 if you're ever in Alexandria I highly recommend The Witches Hut btw! Anyhoo I hope you have a good day! 🙈🙉🙊 #selfie  #me  #selfienation  #queer  #enby  #nonbinary  #bisexual  #polyam  #health  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthmatters  #happiness2others  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealthwarrior  #cptsd  #pd  #chronicpain  #chronicpainwarrior  #chronicpainawarness  #autism  #spoonie  #spoonielife  #little  #inked  #weegie  #videogram  #awesomevideo  #myvideo  #video 
#ptsd #cptsd