Again another one I didn’t jog just walked because my body wasn’t feeling the jog I think I am going to get sick but I need to fight it ugh but I dranked my energizer and walked it :) tomorrow morning back to T25 well hopefully because this morning my body wasn’t cooperating #workoutin#cantgiveupnow
I will be graduating with my associates degree in December and I’ve been accepted into 4/4 college i have applyed to and i am so happy I’ve worked my ass off I’ve failed I’ve got back up and worked even harder life is one constant fight u just gotta stay in the ring and keep on fighting #gottamakeit#futuredoctor#cantgiveupnow#nobodyknows
This is not gonna be nice so don't read if you don't want to.
It's not been a good night. I let the thoughts ruminate and I gave in. I cried as I threw up half the kitchen. I passed out after flushing my system because my damn head told me I had to. It's hard to always ignore the voice in your own head that never shuts up. And now I feel just as crappy because it happened. I can't win. I'm sick of not winning. I'm sick of my own fucking head telling me I'm not good enough. I'm a disappointment. I'm a failure. The only thing I'm good at is being fucking bulimic, and right now I'm even failing at that. I should just off myself because I'm worth nothing. I'm tired of trying to fight my own mind. The only thing I can do right now is dust myself off and keep on fighting. Bad days happen. Bad weeks even. But I can't give in. I would be letting down too many people, myself included.