The most accurate feeling👌🏽 I go through phases of being proud of myself and then feeling extremely let down because I can't seem to meet my expectations. Both are going to happen repeatedly, plus all the stuff in between. But what I've learned in the past maybe 4-6 months about myself...a strength I have...is how I handle change. I learn from my mistakes because I truly love learning in general. I do get beat down (by myself of course) and I DO want to be everything I hope and dream to be. But sometimes that means stepping back and being kind and grateful to everything I already have because I do have a lot. A lot of wonderful people, a lot of wonderful opportunities, a lot of wonderful talents and most of all a lot of determination. So as much as I tell myself that I give up sometimes..I know it's not physically possible. I'm too in love with what I do to even try🙏🏽🙌🏽💥💜 (if you read the whole thing, thank you I appreciate it💀😂💕) #love#thankful#challenges#rant#onlywaytogoisup#alwaysimproving#hardwork#determination#gettingthere#lovemylife#lovewhatido
To my sad self,
I know how difficult it is for you to smile when everything seemed to fall apart. When you felt like the leaves of autumn, breaking from its roots. You cried almost every night and all your precious tears went in vain, in a dark room where nobody was there to hear your sadness, except your pillow. When you took your bright smile for granted and hid all your problems behind it perfectly. I still remember how you acted like you have forgotten the pain while every single time you wanted to scream and cry, loudly, to make everybody hear, or maybe to make yourself hear your own melancholy. Even today when I think, I still feel the pain, how tears co-oporated when you couldn't express your feelings through words
But nothing stays forever, neither happiness, nor sadness. Those days would be the test days for you, your patience to deal with your own emotions would be tested and you will pass, pass the test of life. You wont care about the anguish and the animosities which you were bearing for so long. You will feel like the newly planted sapling, who will grow up to be a strong tree on day. You faced many obstacles and when you'll sit and think about the phase, you'll realize how much it made you strong, you came to know the real face of the society, perhaps your own friends. No matter how much you curse yourself, you'll be proud of yourself one day.
Your happy self
You know it's going to be a challenging day when you have no power. You call your sparky son in law and he says he'll drive 2.5 hrs after work and come and fix our problem. So no power all day. Then just before he leaves the city he suggests one more check. What do you know! Everything is working again! Probably possum pee on an exposed connection somewhere. We're grateful of his offer of help. And relieved he didn't come for no reason! 🙏 @sgiangiulio @sarajmh #power#faliure#gas#cookingwithgas#helpinghand#farmlife#countryliving#challenges#otwayfields#otways