Traveler’s Notebook: Week 43
I attended a dear friend’s wedding!! It’s a bit surreal that we’re all grown up now and getting married! 🙈
It was absolutely beautiful, and I am so happy for you! Congratulations, @julschroeds! 🎉 Let’s catch up some time! 😘
Next month is my ketoversary.
My lowest weight was 154 pounds.Highest weight was 194.Before keto, I would eat Taco Bell, Whataburger, Chick-fil-a every week.If I had a sweet tooth I would go to the store and buy any kind of sweets.One time I got a can of cinnamon rolls and ate the whole thing by myself.I loved carbs.It was comfort for me.It’s still a struggle.
I’m not going to lie though, lately I haven’t been doing strict keto.On Thanksgiving I ate some pie, and I’ve been trying to stay strict keto after that.I’ll stay keto for maybe 3 or 4 days and then fall off.That's been happening a lot lately.When I first started I stayed strict keto for 5 months with no cheats.I want to be honest about my journey and lately I’ve been doing shitty.
But I really need to find that motivation again.That motivation that kept me going.
The bottom right picture is today.
I need to just reset and get back on track.I DO NOT want to be 194 pounds again.I need to get a hold of my old habits that got me to 194 pounds in the first place! That means no carbage, and stop eating when your stuffed as shit.No late night snacking just because I’m bored or watching TV.Find a goddamn hobby.Knitting??? Or some shit.And I need to move MORE.Like for real, don’t need to go sneaking back into those old habits.
171218 Photo Journal
Smiling on the outside, dying on the inside.
Yep, this person's trying to battle out the harsh realities of life and the stress brought about by her chosen college program once again. And great news, I got an egg for a score in a Taxation activity, how brilliant. Add up the other demands left and right at both home and school, BOOM KOKO KRUNCH!
And yeah, a lot has changed at SciHi. I everything feels strange. You see the new generation of SciHiyistas and teachers that I couldn't recognize already. Walking through the empty corridors, I reminisce of the once foolish me. Failed grades and the constant pressure from mentors reiterating over and over again how we should excel since we're scholars and we're the "cream of the crop" of Cebu (yeah, right...). But despite that, SciHi is a place that I am thankful for. I used to hate the idea of me enrolling there for high school and despite my constant plea not to enroll me there, my mom went ahead and enrolled me. "You'll thank me once you graduatr there, you'll how different people would treat you," she said. And she was right, everything seems to be different (in a good way, that is) after I graduated (and until this very day, I haven't thanked her yet). So yeah, there. To sum me up for December: a stressed and chubbier me.
The earth feels as if it were a bounce house below my feet. Reality rushes through like a child would in line at Disneyland. As if it couldn’t wait for my breath, hard and heavy because I feel like my brain is lacking oxygen. Shifty eyes, detailed leaves and glances up to reality to see if it’s going to punch me in the face. Shifty eyes carry me to the car as I explain, with the noise of what feels like 1000 car engines in my ear. I can feel my eyes trying to focus on the red car that drives away while I remember these experiences when I was younger. The rush of life and not being able to catch up and take in the beauty. Oh how wonderful it would be if I were able to do so.
A passage from my journal. I write everything in it and it knows what is going through my brain. I contemplated posting passages from the leather block, but I think I’m ready.
I finally had some downtime to sit and #create . Plus I sold my other denim pocket notebook, so I had to replace it. I worked with the chocolate #jacquard fabric, which I really like. Give the gift of organization this Christmas! Give the gift of #handmade craftsmanship! Give the gift of fun and creativity! And check me out! 🎅☺🎄 The #flower one is 6" x 6" and the #pocket one is 8" x 6".