Just when you think it’s gone..you see the smile, hear the laugh or catch a glimpse of the man you fell for..and you can’t breathe. It’s still there, because that’s what real love is. It never really goes away. You just learn to live without them. #ihatethatiloveyou#godsplan#onedayatatime#divorcesucks
Thank you for serving with The Wives today! We had a blast making meal packs for malnourished children in Swaziland. We sent food and prayers and we were very blessed to be a blessing.
We were happy to have the kids serving alongside us today! It’s so important to teach your children the importance of serving others!
10 years ago my agent called and said, “Melissa, Newsweek is looking for a pregnant model you have to go to NYC for the audition!”
I was a week away from my due date and laughed at her “What? I’m huge I’m about to pop!”
She insisted and I took the train up to NYC from Philadelphia - when I got to the agency there were about 100 pregnant women - I was kind of pissed thinking “what am I doing here?” They took a quick Polaroid of my bare belly and said, “next”....
Back I went to Philadelphia, upon my arrival my agent called and said, “you are one of 4 women that are going to be shot by Howard Shatz and you have a chance to be on the cover! Oh, and you have to be naked 😳 good luck!” What a crazy experience, and well with the picture I posted you can guess the outcome...
Here I am ten years later, holy sh&t time flies and tomorrow is my little babe’s 10th birthday, and it happens to fall on her weekend with her Dad.
I can’t even write that without a lump in my throat, and a pain in my heart. Divorce can be so fucking hard, I know I’m always upbeat and positive, but when you can’t wake up with your girl on her big day it’s soul crushing... but Monday will be here soon enough... #ughh 💔#divorcesucks#everyotherweekend#singlemom .
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I’m allowed to have feelings and I’m allowed to vent even if others don’t understand or agree. ... I just discovered that the man I thought was the #bestpersoniknow only married me out of obligation because we had been together so long. It was a chore to have sex with me. He didn’t want kids with me because he took care of the dogs and figured he would have to do all the work because I wouldn’t. I never take responsibility for my actions either. I treated him poorly. Oh and maybe now I’ll see what a healthy relationship looks like and how to treat someone. These are just a few of the things I found out about our marriage and how the person I spent 14 years of my life with feels/felt/didn’t feel about me.
This is why people kill themselves. .this is why I tried to swallow a handful of Vicodin yesterday. .
The man I thought loved me probably never did. The man I thought was my best friend, never was. The man I thought would never lie to me has been doing it for months and asked friends not to say anything. I feel so betrayed and hurt. I feel like a fucking joke. I loved this man with everything I had and I still love him dearly but it doesn’t matter anymore. I don’t matter and probably never really did. I was wrong about everything. I believed him, I trusted him. I hate myself for being so stupid to believe that anyone could ever want me or love me. He has been talking shit about me back and forth to his future wife that he regretted not being with before. I’m so stupid. I just want to die. How could I have been so stupid? Why wasn’t I good enough? .
The worst part is that I don’t even hate him. I don’t even think he is a bad person. I just don’t know him anymore. I just hate me for not being good enough for him to really want. Apparently he wasn’t as excited about our engagement as he was about going on a date with his girlfriend. .
Last call for Christmas orders!
I will only be taking orders through this Sunday for the holiday season, so if you’ve been considering it, now is your last chance!
There are lots of things to choose from:
- inspirational prints in 8x8 that are meant to be framed
- inspirational prints in 4x4 that you can display on your desk with a mini easel or a tree stump
- Inspirational vinyl stickers to go on your car, laptop, binder, etc., and,
- gift sets where you can select three 4x4 prints of your choice and get your choice of a display, all wrapped in a fabric bag.
Great stocking stuffers or last-minute gifts! Everything you see here is ready to order, and I almost always ship same-day!
Move on over to my #Etsy page (link in profile) and use code 15OFF2017 for 15% off your purchases through this Sunday, December 17th.
I’ve been in my hotel for over a month now anxiously waiting to get to work on my house. Instead of using the insurance money to hire contractors I decided to do a lot of the work myself, using the savings on labor to make major transformations like painting all of the upstairs, carpeting the bedrooms, and doing a slight remodel to the bathroom. I’m usually not one for total home makeovers but for those of you that have been through a divorce you’ll understand, sometimes it’s necessary. #divorcesucks#homemakeover#diy
It's easy for me to empathize with people who have lost a parent. Or who have gotten divorced. Or who have moved into a new home. Or who have started a new career. Or who have done any of those things with a toddler. ❤️
Because 4 years ago I experienced all of them. At the same time. All before I hit 30. And there were literally times where I did not think I could even get out of bed. My heart was broken. 💔
But here I am, 4 years later, back on my feet. With a fully functioning, happy heart. 💜 All of those hard times make for a stronger person, even though sometimes it’s still hard. Really hard. And then I remember where I’ve been. 💗 #ToHellAndBack
All these experiences of mine, help me help others to get their lives #organized . I can sympathize. And if there's anything I've learned, it's that life goes on. No matter what. And you will be OK. And life can be wonderful again.💕✨ #LetsDoThis#HeartOnMySleeve ❤️#FridayIntroduction
DIVORCE! The subject I know all too well! Not only have I been through several myself...my parents and husband have also been divorced. I️t’s not a trial I would wish upon my worst enemy’s. I️ts draining, I️ts hard, and most the time extremely lonely. There is something that I have learned though out my divorces...that I see others struggle super bad with... and that is wishing your EX a happy life! This took me time and practice... but if I was to see ANY of my Ex-husbands... I would truly hope that they were happy and succeeding in life. I could 100% say I could be friends with every single one of them! Even if i have been hurt or hurt back... I still seriously care for them! I see my poor husband deal with an EX that truly try’s to cause problems or unneeded drama on my husbands life... and i just can’t quite understand It??? I also have a mother who chooses to be hard for my father to deal with. I still absolutely love my mother and hope with time her hardened heart can heal! My love for my husbands ex might take longer to come... I hope with prayer and maturity It can! But i don’t understand why people who are divorced with children involved have to be so extremely awful to one another. It is hard enough to live life with out someone causing extra hardships in It! That’s why im going to challenge all the divorced parents out there to pray for the strength to be kind to your ex-spouse! To try and make life easier on your children by not talking about how awful their other parent is (even if they are). To the people considering divorce... stick It out if you can! Im going to tell you from experience... EVERY MARRIAGE I HAVE BEEN IN HAS A CHALLENGE! They are always a different challenge...but a hardship non the less! If divorce is what It needs to be... pray everyday for kindness in your heart for your ex spouse! Time heals all wounds and sometimes that’s just it...you need time! Im thankful I learned this at a young age and didn’t have to waist to much of my energy on hating good people! I know from being hurt myself that It can be difficult to love them at times... but i know It is possible with the lord by your side! #diamondintherough#divorcesucks
Muuuch better! So I spend the best part of yesterday and this morning re-decorating my little tree (see previous post for all the drama). It looks a lot like it did 9 years ago, and that is fine. Maybe some day I'll have a huge real tree, or a big blue Dr. Who tree, but for now my 10ish year old white tree will do just fine. 🌲❄💙
Poopy & Lola’s Mom here. It is with much regret and sadness that I must inform our loyal followers that Poopy will no longer be featured on our page. Sadly Poopy & Lola are products of separation as me and their Dad try to find our way. Keep us in your prayers and know the Poopy is missed and in good hands with his Dad! #divorcesucks#screwdivorce#momisuglycrying#sad#crying#heartbroken
This is NOT how my Christmas tree is looking. WARNING, NEXT COMES A LOOONG AND RAMBLING PIECE. (And you will not even get to see my tree as it is looking now!) This is how it looked, from this weekend up until this afternoon.
Christmas is kicking my ass at the moment. I often feel lonely and completly invisible (even though I am really just alone (and not even that; I have Maggie). And I have plans for Christmas, so no worries) It's the season when I still miss my (ex)husband the most.. (I am hating all the stupid commercials and "happy-family" movies on tv! Just call me the Grinch) When all the questions keep coming (mostly: WHY?!? Why did he leave without a word or explanation, why is he so mad, why did he do his absolute best to make me homeless, why doesn't he want to sell the house, why will he keep our financial strings entwined, why does he brake every agreement we made at the lawyers? WHY?), when the tears keep coming (nights are the worst).. Even though I've had this cute, 3ft/90cm white tree from before we met, all the memories are strongly connected with my ex. I left the big, silver Christmas tree and all the ornaments we had bought together behind. But still, his presence is strong for some reason. So I took it all down and started over. I am not going to buy a new tree (I just don't have the money for it, but also don't want to create more waste). I tried alllll the tinsels I have and I think I might have found something that works.. I will not let an abusive husband and a 3ft/90cm plastic tree beat me! This time I am kicking back!!! (I know this probably sounds weird or stupid, but that is just how it is at the moment.)