But to top it all fucking of, not only do I have my physical self, I loath everything else that makes me who I am, I’m so annoying and sensitive and hypocritical and never realistic and shit to be around, I expect too much, I just constantly piss people of and I don’t think I can think of anyone who is worse than myself. I genuinely feel sorry for the people who have to be around me I’m such a fucking waist of space , I just wish I was never fucking born lmao
The other day I got misgendered and it really punches you in the stomach when you haven’t in in so long, and the worst part is I felt really good that day I thought I looked really masculine, I’m so self conscious about everything and it’s a big struggle, there’s been days where I’m unable to speak because I can’t face the own sound of my voice and I’m just so fucking fed up
Ugh I hate myself so much I’m so chubby I need to go to the gym but we haven’t got enough money yet and I have tried eating healthily and as well as Feeling so god damn dysphoric and I just can’t stand my own body and mind, why can’t I just function and do what others do instead of being like this
Protože mi je často od starších gayů vytíkano že se oblíkám jako.
'' kunda,, Vždy ale po přidání nějaké fotky kde mám na sobě něco chlupatého se pak strhne lavina zpráv od různých pasivních a vers přátel kde jsem sehnal ten chlupatý svetr, vestu, bundu a zda je to i v jiných barvách
Na základě toho jsem se rozhodl zeptat se 50ti různě starých pasivních a vers přátel za by si oblíkli někdy stejnou vestu jako já
Případně jinou podobnou a jestli by s ní chodili ven 38 z 50 tazaných odpovědělo že ano z toho 26 že by ji nosili běžně po městě i do práce 🦄🤔 🙈 🙊🙈
I really don't get why this is happening... why's a community that was discriminated by literally everyone starting to do the fucking same thing inside of their own community.... and believe me I'm not only talkin' about my asexual people..... same happens for the trans- and even in other queer communitys..... why can't a community like ours stand united.... we need to help each other not go all: 'Yeah you're ace but straight.... HOW DARE YOU SAY YOU'RE IN THE LGBT+ COMMUNITY' or 'You're not Trans/Gay/ect. enough'
Behavior like this is disgusting.... this is my opinion you don't have to share it -Jack
So uh this is so far in my transition with photos i have, i think this goes 3rd grade, 7th grade before coming out, later 7th grade after coming out (ft. My brothers and grandma) and then early 8th grade and today 9th grade. Everyone has been very supportive I'm grateful to have been born into such a supportive family. I currently have a GC2B binder, and even a packer I'm hoping to get my mom to soon look into T and stuff!