Had such a great time last week on holidays. Have had a super chilled Saturday, so nice to be at home with my babies. Photo is from a day at Angels Beach last week. Togs are @autographfashion - old season.
So, I noticed myself doing something today that I'm sure I've been doing for a really long time, to the point that it's become ingrained and I do it without even thinking about it. It's clearly a defensive technique I picked up, most likely to make fun of my own mistakes before someone else gets a chance to. But I talk to myself very rudely. I know that probably sounds crazy. Maybe I shouldn't be talking to myself at all. This is different and a little hard to explain, but I did it 3 different times today that I caught. Things like accidentally turning on your turn signal at a round about and then immediately saying "you don't need your turn signal dumbass". Seriously. Or things like "well Jesus Jacki that was stupid". Am I crazy? Does anyone else do this?? Maybe I'm over thinking it, but how am I ever going to show myself love and acceptance if I'm constantly putting myself down. The stuff in my head is bad enough, but to be abusing myself like this mentally is horrible. But then I have to laugh too, because how do I fix this? And it's kind of comical. "Stop talking down to yourself Jacki" or "You shouldn't say such mean things about yourself Jacki ". I might even end up talking to myself more, debating with myself. Can you imagine the conversations?! First me to other me-"Way to go dumbass." Other me to first me -"Now you know mom says if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all"
First me to other me -"Yeah, that's smart. Start throwing mom quotes at yourself genius."
Other me to first me -"That wasn't very nice either...."
Now I'm cracking myself up. Sitting here laughing at myself making fun of both of myselves... Maybe I am crazy...... 😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣
We were just playing a friendly game of pool since neither of us have played in ages....but you've still gotta try, right?! Haha swipe right to see my serious game face...and uh, the guy who had his game face on too lmao. What do you think he's thinking? Haha 😂😂😂🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️ (dress from @forever21 )
E não podíamos deixar de parabenizar a nossa Miss Minas Gerais Plus Size Oficial, Vivi Olly @blackacheadas pelo seu aniversário.
Que a alegria acompanhe você por todos os momentos e que Deus continue guiando todos os seus passos e iluminando cada vez mais os seus caminhos.
Our sexuality is a dimension of us that should be considered a gift. I'm talking about completely open, honest, surrendering. Being honest about your desires and feelings. Not feeling shame for them. Not using that power to feel better about ourselves- but to feel good because we want that touch. You have one body and one life. Don't be afraid to be a fearless lover for yourself and whoever you choose to share it with.
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@Regrann from @londonandrews - I grew up being ashamed of my body. I used to hide it under baggy T-shirts and oversized clothing..... Years later, I realized that everyone's perception of beauty is immensely different. Nothing is wrong with my larger-than-average body... nothing is wrong with your body either. Stay healthy, happy and go take a walk somewhere beautiful. Go to the beach this summer and wear a bikini!!.... Photo by @josefienhoekstra #effyourbeautystandards#honormycurves#plusmodel#lovelife#beyourself#bodypositive#bodyacceptance - #regrann
Different isn't bad! No one is the same, therefore we should embrace our uniqueness and individuality!
Let the pieces of your life make a beautiful and unique collage. One that's YOU.
I'm presently learning this. I'm learning and deciding to be ME. However that is at any given moment, day, week, year. ME. No one else is me. No one else can be me. And I can't be anyone else. I'm learning how to change what I perceive as "flaws." WHO decided that they are flaws? And why? I am loving, kind, generous, accepting, and a good listener. I have beautiful eyes and I look younger than my age. I have a rolly belly, a bunch or grey hair, and I don't shower as often as I want to. I have a tonnnn of stretch marks, cellulite, and jiggle. I've been every size from a 6 to a 20. But ya know what? I do not accept that those things are flaws. (Well, if your standard is perfection then sure, those would be flaws. But what is perfect anyway?! No one has achieved this (accept Jesus but that's a different story for another time.)) Anyway, even IF they are "flaws" they don't define my worth, or value as a human. And they definitely should NOT taint my view of myself. Though they have. And still do. But it's something I'm working to change in my brain. My body is beautiful (my husband tells me this daily. And not in the "aawww you're cute" patronizing way. But in the "daaaaang girl you are gorgeous and I want you" sort of way and with much admiration.) How do YOU talk to yourself about yourself? How do you view your "flaws?" What steps are you taking to bring yourself into a better mindset for yourself? 💕💕💕
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