I guess I am too honest because I know when people lie! Sometimes you don't need to hear excuses or what they have to say for themselves because their actions already spoke the truth. I have seen this time and time again. Sometimes it's even in family, unfortunately. #truth#empath#prophetic#itsucks#justsaying#bereal#smallercircle
Love your partner to the fullest. There's nothing wrong in it. But, be with your mind as well. You shouldn't go mad for her, if she's not givin' a damn about you. You need to see where the feelings are getting initiated from. Whether it's from both the ends or just yours. Otherwise, the result will that you'll be left alone as a one-side lover. And, the life of a one-sided lover is something that one doesn't wish to have. It really hurts.. Once you get to know about from which end the feelings are getting initiated. If it's only from yours, stop that feelings. Not opening her profile on any social media might help. Don't try to text or call her.
If she really have any feelings for you, she will definitely come back to you. I know, you must have heard these two above lines many a times. But, it's true. After all the crap you've been, just give time to her. If she really cares, she will come back and the beautiful story will have a beautiful ending or else, you'll find someone who is on the same page of the story.
"If all who have been sexually harassed or assaulted wrote "Me too" as a status, we might give people a sense of the magnitude of the problem."
Really serious issue and it's not okay!
Yesterday was infant loss awareness day. The pain is still to great that when this day comes each year, I still just want to pretend that it didn't happen. The memories of such heart wrenching pain are too much to bear sometimes. When you want something SO bad and can do NOTHING about it. But then I remember all those days and nights silently sobbing, the loneliness that comes from this loss, and it makes me want to share my story. For the time I thought I was the only one going through it because no one said a word, I cannot remain silent. My 6 babies in heaven do make heaven sweeter and something to look forward to even more, but what I want MORE is to hold each of them NOW! I don't want to wait!! ITS NOT FAIR!! I want to throw a fit in the middle of everything and scream at the top of my lungs. But that isn't what we do, for some reason. We sit on our beds and quietly cry, by ourselves. It sucks. IT SUCKS!!! Sending each of you who know this heartbreaking loss the biggest tightest I can't breath because you are squishing me but wouldn't have it any other way hugs. #infantloss#infantlossawareness#itsucks#angelbaby#angelbabyx6
Bali is showing me the truth of what really matters when I'm down on my knees not sure wether to pray for life or death. What I crave for then has always been human touch & connection. And on my path these longings and human needs have gotten deep hits in the gut, in the womb and in the heart. Resulting in seaking refuge in isolation. It seemed like a safe but at the same time it's a terribly lonely place. Sadly, it was a price I was willing to pay.
Bali has forced me to end some things here as well as accept my current "reality". I'm faced with my limitations and need to accept that some things I may not be able to shift right now to released myself out of my cage life. As much as I would want that free spirit - that I know and experienced being at the core of my soul - to break through and take over my human experience... I can't skip the steps. I am here to embrace all my humanity, also in the forms less shiny and presentable. I can't deny where I am coming from and keep comparing my life to others who seem to or pretend to enjoy this paradise island (which if you look closely and willing to see it - is also hurting badly).
It's a tricky and delicate fine-tuning of awareness to live with a history of abuse and abandonment and releasing the addiction to keep victimizing myself. Often it's easier to either blame or deny circumstances, numbing with other addictions (especially screens and digital communication) to not feel the utter original pain of humilation, isolation, seperation, worthlessness, powerlessness and exposure.
This year life brought me to feel it all and I'm still here, often about to loose it. my mind, my beliefs, my hopes, my connection to others - not always a bad thing but truly scary to the identity I've built from all of this. Death of identity is a romanticized goal of spiritual strivers. It's fucking painful until you can only surrender and give into trusting a bigger stream of life to carry you. But until you can truly trust it's struggle and feeling pain... I don't believe there's a way around. I see many attempt to bypass this important part of the path and loosing their human anchoring. (continued in comments)...