Sometimes the one who is running from the Life/Death/Life nature insists on thinking of love as a boon only. Yet love in its fullest form is a series of deaths and rebirths. We let go of one phase, one aspect of love, and enter another. Passion dies and is brought back. Pain is chased away and surfaces another time. To love means to embrace and at the same time to withstand many endings, and many many beginnings- all in the same relationship. ♊️☯️ #lifeandlove#allwithinyou#frankiebigxmas
Three and half years ago I was engaged. This is where we were to wed. Three months before the wedding I called it off. He was having trouble paying rent. He said he’d take me on a honeymoon but I never heard of any plans. He would disappear for hours to run a “small errand”. I found out he was selling my belongings out of my closet. That was the last straw. It was over. His lies, the web he wove finally started to break in the wind. I should have known sooner. I did know sooner. Early on in our relationship I told him to stop lying or it’s over. He straightened out for a bit. I believed he could change. But stress crept back into our lives and instead of talking to me about it he decided to tell stories. Except that time I couldn’t tell he was lying. I feel lucky to be alive. To be honest the situation was down right scary. By the end I felt like I fled to save my own life. I didn’t know what was real anymore because he created his own reality with no regard to my own. My dreams turned into a nightmare. Mental and emotional abuse are hard to spot sometimes until it’s too late. Don’t be like me. Don’t ignore the signs. If you have your whole heart to give wait for the right person to meet you when you’re ready. If you have a similar story know that true love is waiting for you to find it and it will be glorious when you do. #lifeandlove#emotionalabuse#mentalabuse#lettinggo#movingon#dontgiveuponyou#yourworthit#selflove#staytruetoyourself#ownyourlife#strongwomenunite
As the year ends
Some reflections on lessons learned
Physical endings are an inevitably. Discovering this carcass being pecked at by some pigeons reminded me of that.
Rupi Kaur is bang on.
Allowing others to treat us badly only gives them permission.
How we share our energy can lift us up or being bring us down