People with a mental illness make the best actors and actresses. I have the ability to turn my problems off if in front of others. But it catches up with me. I can pretend I'm ok . Normal.
The best way I can act is to be overly happy everything is an exaggeration. I can be smiling I have a fake laugh I can seem like nothing is wrong. When really I'm dying on the inside.
I struggle with telling people how I really feel. And I suppose in some respects that's the role of my eating disorder when I'm under weight people know I'm struggling of course there are many other factors but being underweight allows people to know I'm not ok.
But anyway I had a little family crisis yesterday I'm not discussing my families business on here but yeah I had a bit more stress yesterday but everything's going to be ok in that respect
Think my sister's coming down with the baby later. Then I might do some cooking I haven't used my new cooker yet as new appliances scare me but I'm just going to try and get over it and actually use it.
Hope you all have a wonderful day #anorexia#recovery#eatingdisorderreality#edsoldiers#edfighter#bulimia#mentalhealth#mentalhealing#positivity#anxiety#stress#strength#eatingdisorder#adultswitheds#bingeeating#mentalhealthawareness#timetochange#mentalillness
Since OCD is a highly genetic disorder, it is no surprise both me and my father have the frustrating disorder. However, my father is still a large part of why I am stable and healthy today. His nickname for me is “Court,” and I have joked before about him calling me “Cortu” (“Court” just spelled in alphabetical order). While this piece is serious and depicts the other half of myself, it also shows the compassion that me and my father share due to this disorder. This handwritten font is the peeking sun from a storm cloud.🌦
I share my story to heal and help others heal too. At the age of 15 I was intoxicated and in a room with two men not to mention I had daddy issues more than ever at the time. My poem picture perfect describes my story in detail. Oct 26 I'll explain my story why I created the campaign and what to expect. Mental illness is real and mental health is needed. Healthy lifestyle #metoo#thinknaked#model#mentalhealthawareness#rapeculture#rapeawareness
Oggi mi aspetta una lunghissima giornata piena di sfide, perché piena di cose belle ma che mi fanno ancora sentire un bel po’ a disagio. E quindi mi ero preparata fin da ieri sera questa canzone come sveglia, per ricordarmi di iniziarla al meglio questa giornata piena di sfide. •
Today is going to be a challenging day, one of those that can still make me feel uncomfortable: that’s why I planned it to start with a good song, to start it with the best mood possible before the challenges begin. •
If you’ve ever missed work for mental health reasons, the figures prove you are most certainly not alone. -*source http://www.camh.ca/en/hospital/about_camh/newsroom/for_reporters/Pages/addictionmentalhealthstatistics.aspx
Had a Strawberry Chobani yogurt at school today 🍓One of my friends today kept calling themselves and other people fat/skinny and it made me feel really self conscious about how I look 😖 Today at school some people in my geography class were saying how being gay is bad and how it's okay to make fun of people because of this and it made me feel really crappy about being who I am and I hate that feeling 🙃 I'm so very sick of being told that because of my sexuality or mental health that I am not worth as much as any other person. I've had a rather crappy day today and everyday its been getting harder to get out of bed to face the day😕 I really do hope that you have been having a great day because you deserve it! You are worthy of a great life and you are worthy of recovery💜
As I mentioned in my last post, F. Scott Fitzgerald once said, “You can change or stay the same.” What he didn’t say was that today, change is going to cost you, $270 for 30 minutes with a psychiatrist to be exact. That appointment was bleak, today was bleak. I would give anything for ‘sanity’ right now.
This photo is my old street in East Melbourne, it’s on my walk from Jolimont Station every time I go to program. Fond memories, sadness too. I would have been home by now had I managed to keep my shit together.
Quick shout out to my baby for being there for me through 5YEARS of crippling depression and severe anxiety. I know its not easy to deal with EVERY single one of my anxiety/panick attacks, but thank you for always being there to help. cant explain how much i appreciate you. thank you for being my "Home" 💕 #mentalhealthawareness#myrock#tb2012
Depression is not brushing your hair for days at a time so when you finally do it, it feels like dreads. Depression is having the alarm go off over and over and dreading getting out of bed. Depression is making and breaking and remaking plans with friends. Depression is a heavy weight on your chest threatening to suffocate you. Depression is under eating or over eating and struggling to find the balance. Depression is lashing out at loved ones and pushing them away even though deep down you need them to hug you and not let go.
I challenge you to pick a quote from a favourite movie, book, author, writer, actor, mentor. One that doesn't necessarily have anything to do with mental health but that could correlate to it. Post it with any picture.
One that has always stood out like this for me - "Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?" Because mental illness has so much to do with the thoughts in our heads and I've always felt uplifted by this quote. Like break that stigma. Because even though it's so much in our minds, it is so real. And not talked about enough. #jointheconversation#breakthestigma#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness
The Cycle Down Under to raise mental illness awareness .
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1100 kms , 10,500 mtrs of elevation and in under 10 days .
The east coast of Tasmania has the highest youth Suicide Rate at present and we want to help reduce that .
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Lately I’ve really been #struggling#mentally with being a #stayathomemom Having a husband who works #fifo and two young kids is crazily #exhausting Every day I struggle to get out of bed and feed myself and see the #pleassure in what my kids are up to day to day. My 2yo has been playing up a lot looking to get any sort of attention, my 1yo has been #teething so wanting more and more attention. I haven’t had more than an hour or two to myself since my 2nd son was born and it’s really taking it’s toll.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids to death but I’ve found my #depression creeping up on me more and more and I really don’t #appreciate my kids the way I know I should.
Anyway the other week I decided to chop my hair back down to my shoulders and that I wanted to dye it in a bright funky colour in an attempt to put some #fun back in my #life in whatever way I can since I know getting #metime just isn’t likely to happen. Hubby says I’m having a #midlifecrisis maybe he’s right, but hey it’s helped a little. Although hubby isn’t so fond of my now #purplehair but even if he won’t admit it I know he enjoyed #dying it for me. It makes me feel a little less like a frumpy Mum and like a different person, makes me feel younger (I’ll be 30 in a few short months! 😱) This #post goes out to all the #mummies and #daddies who have #struggled and fallen into depression and felt that they just can’t keep up with everything once they had #kids Keep your chin up, head heals high and know that no matter how much you feel like you’re failing, you are actually #winning You are doing an #amazing job just being there for your kids, being a #parent is so emotionally and mentally straining and it’s so hard to not compare yourself to all those “perfect parents” and textbooks out there. Some people are naturally good with kids, others it takes a lot more energy and effort but it makes you no less a successful parent.
I’d like to know, what do you do to help you get through the #hardships of parenting? What things do you do, big or small, that make you feel just that little bit better when you feel like you’re struggling?
A couple of weeks ago, I did a live Q&As here on Instagram. Quite a few questions were asked and quite a few of my closest friends came on just to make fun of each other (All fun Banter!) The one question that had me thinking was this - You are wanting to inspire others through your blogs right? What would you say to someone who is wanting to commit suicide?
At first, I didn't think I had an answer to the question. Suicide is a big issue especially here in New Zealand where we are one of the countries with the highest suicide rates. We're such a small country yet there are many individuals who take their own lives because they may not see the light at the end of their tunnel. To people who feel like giving up; who feel like their life on this Earth is not living - Please don't give up! It may feel like your life is not worth living but trust me, there is a light at the end of every tunnel. It may not seem like this but life does get better. There is help out there and suicide awareness is now big in many countries. If we can prevent someone from taking their own Life; show them that there are people who care and who are willing to lend a hand; be a listening ear; and be the shoulder for one to cry on. Suicide doesn't end the chances of life getting worse, it ends the possibility of life ever getting any better - If you know anyone who is feeling depressed or suicidal, please be their listening ear. As one person, you are powerful enough to make a difference in another person's life 💓
Did you know on average a person dies by suicide every 7 hours in the state of Arizona... 😔 The @commitcampaign fashion show maybe over but I will continue to take an active roll on spreading the word about mental illness. If you would also like to take a more active roll and help spread awareness click on the direct link located in my bio to learn more about the Commit Campaign & what they do to help those who are suffering & to learn more about mental illnesses. Take the pledge today to COMMIT to end the stigma associated with suicide & mental illness. ❤️🖐🏼 #thecommitcampaign#deathbysuicide#stigma#commit#mentalhealth#mentalillness#mentalhealthawareness#commitcampaignfashionshow#icommit
MY NEW ANGEL WINGS CAME!!! I've never had training shoes before so I got a new pair since I'll be doing less cardio :(, my other shoes are all made for running so these felt so light!!! leg day with another 20 min hiit- I feel much more confident using the machines than before getting a trainer! Leg extension, leg curl, calf raises...3x15 plus some body weight stuff. Split squats with Dumbbells is definite the toughest for me. Sticking to a program is also a new challenge, for years and years I just went to the gym and did whatever i felt like. Hopefully the discipline will give me better results...