realized I’m sitting here overthinking whether I’m overthinking overthinking
song: Lost in the Moment by NF
blank expressions, staring into space mid-conversation,
desperately trying to focus on the words being said
but instead I analyze emotions, overthink details, find meaning in mundane things.
a mind home to a wealth of questions and realizations
waiting, fearing, now forgetting
maybe it’s so deep it’s shallow
maybe I’ve fooled myself
I thought I climbed mountains
collecting each new height in a treasured bottle of thoughts that I wouldn’t trade for the world, and still only longing to explore more
hoping to share it but realizing most only seek hills
but maybe none of that is true.
I remember the day you told me I had a layered, profound mind:
I was flattered
until I realized it was the day you quit digging.
I’m writing cloud/deep as two parts of the same story. a story very important to me. very abstract, a little lost & alone, the feeling of being different. I’m sure most people encounter it everyday and just don’t talk about it, but who knows.
song: Lost in my Mind by The Head and the Heart
my back towards the house, eyes staring out,
peacefully alone in a vivid thought,
hesitating on the brink of answers.
I am content.
a vibrantly abstract mind in an overwhelmingly natural and concrete world
then a dream, a perception, floats perfectly down and fog surrounds the cranium
and suddenly, it’s lonely in the clouds
sneaking up, seeping in, the differences sting at the lack of connection,
that failure to fit with most others.
the laughter, the conversations, the fun
all good and wonderful for most people.
but me, I’d rather have the grave, blue sky
and sometimes I love that. and sometimes I find myself wishing to change.
After a long Diwali vacation, we are happy and ready for the week!
And little D was ever so happy to meet her teachers and friends today.. You should have looked at her excitement!
Hows your #Monday coming??