My problem is that I'm trapped in a social structure that forces people to conform to a certain routine as a kid and by the time they reach adulthood, it is a part of their life just like everything else. Why must I be forced into boring mediocrity when I could experience the world. If I didn't have to be at school when they wanted me to be, and if i had autonomy and my parents had no control, I would be gone constantly, exploring and doing interesting stuff. I just ate POUTINE for the first time last month AND IM CANADIAN.
Since high school started, so many people have been asking if I need help or if I'm okay. My drama teacher, my other teacher who put me into a homeschooling type program as well as my bus driver and multiple people in my drama class who have asked if I've ever been to a therapist. Like, I have no feelings to deal with? I am perfectly fine, I just want to be left alone. It's dealing with other people's stuff that bothers me. I have at least 3 friends who are suicidal, many more who are depressed, the curriculum which doesn't teach me what I want to know controls my life AND I have no autonomy. I would love to be able to go where I please and do what I want to do, but I have to adhere to an average persons sleep schedule and work schedule.