I threw my phone, cried, cursed, punched the couch and finally breathed for this meal. My #eatingdisorder wanted me to be immobilized by fatigue and avoidance. Again. Wanted me to order out and stay on the couch for 4 to 6 hours. Again. It was a cycle. Go to Dominoes, order, delete it, check fridge and cupboard, sit on couch. Repeat. I threw my phone across the room, twice. I didn't want to be idle and immobilized. I didn't want junk in my body. I cried and cursed because I was angry and ashamed choosing to eat a meal was such a struggle! Because I was legitimately hungry and didn't have a taste for anything to eat in my apartment but wanted everything outside of it! Why can't eating be normal instead of a big oreal? I didn't even completely understand what was happening ... Deep breathes. In and out. My "magick apron." Rice and vegan meat cook themselves. I've been abstinent for half a month. I'm not sure this post even makes sense. All I know is, I thank my Higher Power. That's the only way I made it. I'm going to read now. Away from the couch.
This has been a recurring theme in sessions this week with my coaching clients. It’s also popping up in my own life. This feeling of not being able to fully own my greatness. And I find it intriguing that it seems to be the human condition, a common default to think “who do we think we are?” We are afraid of success as much as we are of failure. Why? My best guess is that we are comfy with staying small because it’s what we’re used to—a way we can protect ourselves from further hurt or scrutiny. It’s protection. And just like numbing out keeps us from joy, so does staying small keep us from our greatness.
When we play small, we don’t get to be fully alive and really LIVING. Really living takes place outside the land of comfort & familiarity. Really living is when we are realizing our potential every day and as we realize our potential, so does the world. We deserve this. We are born for this. The best medicine for the world we live in is for each of us to play big and be as great as we were born to be.
Mixed lettuces wit cabbage ,onion,red wine vinegar and tuna mix mmmmm
thia was the best version ever I licked the bowls clean wow I should b a chef lol
Jk Fuk no but damn I needed that !!!
Going to target for 3 things ....HAHAHHAHA
Appreciation post 🙌 After a difficult week of feeling guilty about things with my dad & just missing him more than imaginable, I am thankful to have such amazing people in my life that pick me up when I am weak. I know I can’t do it by myself so thank you to all my friends & family that have been there for me this week. I love you! I am beyond blessed to be surrounded by those individuals that make me a better person each and every day mentally, physically & spiritually 🙌 I will never take it for granted & will continue to show gratitude for this beautiful thing called life 🙏❤️
My first Beachbody program that I ever did was 'Slim in 6'. Beachbody wasn't in Canada at the time. I was watching 📺 late one night (probably eating chips) and an informercial came on. I had never ordered anything from a commercial before. I don't know what made me do it but I picked up the phone (yes, you had to call the 1-800 number) and I order the program. Coaches and support weren't a thing yet. But the programs were and still are amazing.
I was consistent with my workouts and I actually got amazing results. I remember thinking that my thighs had never looked so good before. Well, fast forward a month or two and I had basically quit my new found lifestyle. Slowly but I did.
The weight slowly came back (like it always does) and I was back a square one. This time around I found a coach. Beachbody was now in Canada. I knew people who were doing the program. I seen their results. I wanted what they got. My coach sent me a link and I ordered a program. Lose up to 15lbs in 21 days! A coach to keep me motivated! Containers to portion out my foods appropriately!Sign me up.
I followed the program 100% for months. I lost my weight. I loved being in a group where we were all after the same goal. A combination of support and Shakeology is what I credit to my success. I was improving our lifestyle. (Yes the whole family benefited) And I was in the best shape of my life.
Why wouldn't I want to share this with other women. Sharing is caring! Right? The U.S 🇱🇷 shared with Canada. 🇨🇦 And now we are sharing with the U.K.! 🇬🇧 Today was the launch in the U.K.!!! How can I not be excited that so many people are going to get the help and support to improve their life and those of their family like I did. 💕
If you want a spot in my first U.K. accountability group, we start November 6th. Why not try it and see what happens. Beachbody stands behind all their products, so if it didn't work you have a 30 day money back guarantee. No questions asked. (I have never heard of anyone wants to return it)
I promise that if you follow the program, you WILL get results. Picture yourself in a new dress for New Years Eve. 👗 (Because none of your old ones will fit)
#tbt to our first game Holiseum! Made by Rob Canciello and Jose Zambrano after their @playcrafting Unity course. This project is what sparked our drive to make Eos Interactive! One day it will get the release it deserves #onedayatatime#colors