OH MY GOSH. This WAS me!!! This is it, this is my story! For years I attended aa, counseling for alcoholism, read books, attended recovery groups, but STILL I would sit in the groups and tell myself, “ya I have a problem with alcohol, but if I REALLY wanted to control it and not get drunk, I could.” That was the lie I told myself FOR YEARS!! That I was somehow different than my fellow alcoholics, that I just liked the drunk feeling, and that was why I always ended up in a blackout. Nope, nope, nope.. I was all wrong, the truth is I am no different than any other recovering alcoholic, that one drink leads to many more, and I cannot drink safely, or controllably. Once I FINALLY accepted this, I was able to make progress in recovery. It’s honestly made my life much more enjoyable and peaceful now that I am not lying to myself and everyone around me about my “ability” to drink normally... after all, nobody believed me anyways! 😉💃🏻😂
Heya guys, is anyone else's Instagram not working properly?🙄I've tried to post this 4 times already! And that's when I decided to write my caption in the notes and copy and paste it to avoid taking too long on the app😕it just keeps turning off and not working😱which is really annoying as I wanted to post everything I ate today😏either way, I have pictures of most things so when it works again I shall update you all properly! Xxx but for now, this, alongside hummus, a quarter of a big tub of Yeo valley yogurt and a peanut butterified crumpet was my very yummy lunch😋
I'm really happy I gained yesterday as I'm fighting the thoughts but needed to see that it was paying off💪anorexia is smart, smarter than we realise, but we are smart too and we can become wise to our illness and make sure that we own it! And it's not the other way around😝
As my mum is making all my meals I am finding it hard to ask for things I worry about her portioning, this is making my variety small again so I was wondering if anyone A) has any foods that they challenge themselves with by allowing others to serve them and B) you have any techniques which help you to allow others in control of your intake🤗I want to gain so it really shouldn't be a problem but Ana's a b**** as we all know and things aren't always going to be easy😒but it's worth the battle💪
I was thinking earlier about just how HARD we have to fight in this battle and the persistence we must show in order to beat this horrid illness and I just thought to myself that we are all so much more than fighters🤜we are warriors, we really are here for the long run, to battle to the death, to live and practise what we preach when it comes to this crazy journey we call recovery🤙so keep knocking down doors warriors, because LIFE IS AMAZING!!!! #eatittobeatit#2fab4ana#eatingdisorderrecovery#edrecovery#anorexiawarrior#anorexiafighter#edsoldier#lifeisbeautiful#2fab4ana#fuckana#eatingdisorder#anorexiarecovery#anorexiasucks#anorexiasurvivor#anorexianervosa#eatittobeatit#nourishnotpunish#food#yummy#delicious#recovery
IF YOU READ EVERYTHING PLEASE COMMENT THE 😀emoji so I know because I don't if they're read xx
Dinner was this SO heavenly wrap😩❤️
•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••Like omg i was so scared to try this😳 But i did it! I had no idea what to eat for dinner, and i craved something sweet🤔 Sweet cravings are scary, but you got to listen to them or they’ll start haunting you like ghosts😱👻😜 No but seriously! So i took this totally SPONTANEOUSLY just casually home alone made myself a jam wrap😱😳😍 And few cucumber pieces lol😂
•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••The vegan streak is on peeps!😜👊🏻👊🏻
Meine Zielzeit! 😂😂 Haha ok vielleicht auch doch nicht! 😂
Startnummer wurde heute in der Früh sofort abgeholt 😍💪🏼 und am Nachmittag ging es shoppen! 😅 Perfekte Vorbereitung für einen Marathon #nicht 😂!
Ich freue mich schon riesig auf morgen und bin echt gespannt wie es mir gehen wird! 🙈
Hoffe ihr habt auch ein tolles Wochenende und drückt mir bitte für morgen die Daumen!!😱🖤
Everyone has a side of them that they don't show, everyone is fighting their own battles, so learn to be kind and don't be quick to judge 🙏.
You never know how hard it is to "just eat", you never know the feeling of hating yourself because you ate an ice cream, you never know the feeling of counting every single calorie you consumed, until you have anorexia.
It's like a demon inside you, constantly telling you you aren't good enough , you are eating to much, you're FAT. It's scary how signs of my health deterioting were signs of success for me at that time,signs of me getting closer to being perfect. I recovered, after two years since 2013, but I relapsed again this year and it's the hardest thing ever, going through the nightmare all over again.
I never thought I would be able to recover, I thought this battle will never end, but it did and I feel stronger and better than ever. Fitness was not only to look good, it allowed me to live a happy life again. Yeah it's hard and I still count the amount of food I eat now, but I know one day I'll be able to beat the demon💪
If you notice signs that someone close to you may be suffering from an eating disorder, please don't ignore them and try to give them as much love and support as possible, because they really need it. Don't ever ever give up on them.🙏🙏
For those of you who are fighting, I want to tell you that recovery is 100% possible, you may be in pain and suffering now but I guarantee you you CAN FIGHT IT,you are stronger than an eating disorders,it's not easy and it may take some time , but it's gonna be worth it 💪💪
I have this annoying default setting,
That really gets me fretting.
I never think people like me,
But don't worry this isn't some plea.
I'm not fishing for some reassurance,
I'm just shredding my appearance.
You know, just for shits and giggles,
Plus it would be cool if being true ripples.
I never used to think I was insecure,
Until I stopped my need for wanting more.
Only once I stopped using all sorts to hide,
Did I learn the importance to confide.
So this is all this is,
Just me sharing my business.
My rational brain knows what's true,
That it has nothing to do with any of you.
It doesn't matter what you think they say,
It's hard to believe this every single day.
But in any case even if you don't like me,
Why do I need your approval to be free.
It's only because of what I think of myself,
And my slight issue with mental health,
That I worry people don't like who I am,
And find it hard not to give a damn.
I have to work on freeing myself from this,
In order to live in bliss.
See it may be my default,
But it's not locked in behind a vault.
I can change the setting,
By learning the art of letting.
Doing a let,
On whatever it is that makes you fret.
Is guaranteed to let you be,
Just like that you're living free.
Free from fear and worry,
So better get a hurry,
Let that shit go,
Who cares who doesn't like the show.
I realise it's ironic to post a selfie,
About a poem of people not liking me.
But the world is ironic,
At least I'm not smoking chronic!
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dressing up this evening 😉 (can u believe there's no bowtie emoji???? what the heck)
okay, okay. this is like thirteen hours late. but I can't not show off my pasta 🍝
anyway, I'm off to play basketball for the first time since middle school 😅⛹️♀️ it's probably going to be deeply embarrassing, but hopefully the cute boy that I'm going with won't judge me too much 😂
also!! my mom sent me a huge package of food for my birthday (which is on Sunday), mostly foods that I'm afraid to eat. but it's a good chance to challenge myself because I refuse to begin my twentieth year too afraid to eat my mom's delicious peanut butter cookies 🤷♀️
When I was still recovering with broken ribs I could manage a 100kg deadlift (220Ibs) once... I know it's pretty low and not even close to where I want to be but the point is: never give up and no matter what stones block your path. You have 3 options: 1) you stand there staring at a black hole 2) you use the rocks as stepping stones and move forward and beyond or 3) you crush the boulder in front of you with everything you've got 💪 9 months of training added at least an extra 10 reps to this DL while maintaining control at all times (I still need to walk on that wooden floor... 😆) Peak phase coming soon! Aiming for minimum of 160kg (350Ibs) DL at the end of 2017! #powerlifting#deadlift#strength#goals#ambition#fitness#recovery
Уффф, неужели рабочая неделя закончилась. Сейчас валяюсь и слушаю ламповые песенки, так расслабляет. ➖➖➖➖➖
На 2-й завтрак (или как это назвать?):
• Крабовый салат ~50г
• Песочная печенька (ооочень маленькая)
• Яблочный компот 100мл
• Кусочек омлета • Кукуруза
• Колечко с кремом (с видосика👆) и чай б/с
• Оливье ~70г
• 1/4 мягкой вафли с джемом и чай б/с
Последнее время я то и делал что зажирался и оставлял кучу еды в себе, так что организм, наверное, не ошалеет от такого кол-ва ккал.
А ещё я хочу, чтобы в профиле был порядок и посты были красиво (на мой взгляд) оформлены. Вот:з
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