So, I started this account almost a month ago and haven't posted anything since. See, the thing is, I've been thinking a lot about what I should post. I've been doubting about whether this is something I want to do. No, let me rephase that. This is something that I want to do, but I'm doubting myself. I'm doubting if I'm good enough to share my thoughts. I'm scared that I will get judged here. I'm not really skinny, nor have I ever been. I have been underweight, but not critical. It makes me wonder if I'm worth to be sharing my story. I'm not here to post pictures of myself. I don't have before-after pictures that will amaze anyone. I'm not going to post pictures of food, simply because I feel really uncomfortable doing that. So what should I post then? What will make you read my posts? Will I even be interesting? Does anyone want to interact with me? Is that what I'm secretly looking for? Some interaction with people who are going through the same thing?
All those overwhelming thoughts made me hold back on posting anything.
But, I have decided to start posting according to what I want to post. I have no idea if any of you will appreciate my posts, like them or intereact with me, which is scary as hell. But I am going to do it. I am going to put myself put there. 💗
Nature is the most beautiful thing, still it can seem so random. Sometimes being wild is what makes you beautiful and unique, most importantly it's makes you who you are. Be yourself, be wild and bold. Being different is something good, be proud #RoadToHappiness#NoFilter#Nature#Sea#Landscape 🍃🍃
I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles!
"It doesn't matter who hurt you or broke you down. What matters is who helped make you smile again." ...I smile more nowadays and it's mostly cause of this blue eyed babe who re entered my life when I was feeling at my lowest (career and divorce-update ya soon) You see, him and I began talking after our first deployment together (2012) then I broke his heart and went back to an ex of mine. I don't deserve this second chance, but he thinks I do. Thankful for his love and patience as I reconfigure this life of mine and recover from years of mental unstableness and hurt. Cause as I've admitted to some... just cause I smile more doesn't necessarily mean I am ok inside. I've learned that I need to be selfish for once and focus on myself for a little while. I'm getting there. #missinghim#roadtohappiness#findingmyselfagain#babysteps#mentalhealthawareness#tiredbutok#veterans
Last year around this time I was forced to deal with something so painful and hurtful, it almost turned me into a bitter person. Everytime I think about it I'll probably shed a tear or two. But at the end I know Allah would never burden me more than I am capable of. I'd say alhamdulillah coz it was a lesson learned, a chance for me to also reflect on my deeds. I'm not saying that time can magically do the healing but if we allow Allah to help ease our heart, if we trust His plan insyaAllah we'll be in His guidance no matter how difficult the situation is. And for the people who have caused me so much pain, I finally learn to include them in my prayers, may Allah one day ease my heart into forgiving them. Now, not just yet. Maybe, one day, I know.
You have to point yourself to the sky in order to aim to the moon. Not all of us can reach it. Not today, not in several years, or maybe never. But the least we could do is aim there and we surely will hit a star!
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it. Life is bliss, taste it. Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it. Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tragedy, confront it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it. Life is too precious, do not destroy it. Life is life, fight for it!
The hustle ain’t always easy and neither is barely having any sleep this week, butttttt hold up ✋🏼 & let me end it with a smile because I am making my dreams a reality, doing my best to empower and inspire others. I thank God for the resilience I’ve grown to have over the years because absolutely nothing can stop me.